Goodness! It’s been a WHILE since I last wrote. Sufficed to say, I’ve been busy. I hate that word. “busy”. It’s way over used.
Triple Crown Leadership <—– great piece on “being busy”
The word itself doesn’t even look like it’s spelled correctly. Busy…..Bussy? Bisy. Bisie, Bizy? Anyway, I hate busy. HOWEVER! That being said…..I have been busy in a good way!
Right now I should be packing. Why? Oh maybe because we are moving in 2 days. I am at the point where everything that can be packed is packed. Everything else has to wait until the last few mad hours before we leave for good. So I thought I would write……it may be another month before I get to again. I can’t WAIT to be back into my normal routine.
I think I will start with probably one of the most exciting things to ever happen to me.
There I am! It’s finally out! I didn’t think it would be out until today actually but much to my surprise it was early!!! I was talking to my friend on the phone last week and she said “So, I saw your article in Women’s Health”. I screamed “WHAT!?!?!?!?!” I may have made her ear drums bleed.
“JEEEEEEREMY!!!!! GO GET THE MAIL GO GET THE MAIL!!!!!”
“WHAT? WHY? What’s wrong?
“MY ARTICLE! CHERYL…..ITS HERE….MAIL!!!!!”
He makes a mad dash out the door.
And there it is! Crazyness I tell you…..crazyness. What an honor. What a moment. What validation. Wow. Jeremy went out and bought two additional copies at the store. I am not ashamed to admit I will be laminating that bad boy, framing it and making it a focal point in my house. Ok, maybe not a focal point, but it will be on the fridge, inside the pantry, folded in my purse, in my journals, and for sure framed in my office. Not because I am trying to brag or show off, but as a reminder, when the days are dark and my mind tries to go back to the places I never want to return.
One day I can show my clients, hey look at this….I UNDERSTAND!!!! I can help, you can trust me, I have been there.
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So, here are some other things that have been going on…..
Oh the blasted crane…..I finally did it!!!
Valentines Day Happiness
Cuddles with Cici. When Aidan was learning to talk, he couldn’t say Trixie so he would say Cici. That’s become her nickname…along with BRAT.
Aidan’s 6 yr molars started coming in and his gums swelled up in the most alarming manner! Apparently it’s totally normal for that to happen. Poor guy. OUCH!
Even though it’s been weeks since I have had a proper workout, except an occasional sporadic run, I have been getting plenty of physical activity in the form of packing and pushing boxes around…..so my foam roller and I have become BFF’s. I am not sure what I ever did with out it. Oh yeah…..I laid on the floor for an hour stretching and complaining…..
I was fixing Aidan’s hair one morning and I see these two “bobbed” spots. He says bobbed instead of bald. I can’t bring myself to correct him. He also says thair instead of fair. Sometimes his cuteness is overwhelming. Anyway, as a mother, my mind goes straight to “OMG what disease does he have?” As I am looking at the spots he lets me know he doesn’t have some rare incurable disease, he just gave himself a little haircut. Whew!!!! Thank goodness!
So as I was packing one evening I came across this little box of gems. My past. CRINGE! Look at those gallon zip locks of notes!!!!! I didn’t read all of them but the ones I did read were awesome. They are priceless. Filled with drama and silliness. Lots of “oh my gosh…..I can’t believe I wrote that.” was said aloud. I was a different person back then that’s for sure.
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The last few weeks I have been reading a book called May Cause Miracles by Gabrielle Bernstein. Finding it was a bit serendipitous but I am convinced it’s also one of those things that I was meant to read. I heard about it a while ago and thought, Hmmm….that looks interesting, I will have to check it out. Then while browsing at B&N one day I walked right into it. SIGN!!!!!!! It’s a little on the hippy dippy side but it has REALLY opened my eyes to so many things I was blind to. The first two weeks were are about overcoming fears. I was able to discover some fears I have that I never realized were there. Being able to identify them has been life-changing. In one of the first chapters she says this about fear. “Love did not create this.”
That simple sentence has altered my entire world. I wish I could expound on how and why but….yeah…..you know…..too personal.
Just the other day I read this little gem of a passage…..
Yes, yes and more yes. Many have misconceptions about this. Forgiveness doesn’t mean reconciliation or relationship. Ex. I have forgiven the man who took Daniel from us, but I am not going to go have coffee with him. Forgiveness means that you have let go of the hurt and bitterness that once poisoned your heart and mind. You are free to love and live the life you were meant to live.
I highly recommend this book. It’s so good! Read it with an open mind and get out of it what you can.
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So then there is this little thing we did yesterday!
WE CLOSED!!!!! So excited! We signed papers for AN HOUR!!!! But….honestly, it was quite fun!
I can’t wait to start a new chapter in our lives. I will be sad to say goodbye to our first house together. Sad to say goodbye to our sweet neighbors. It will be an adjustment getting to know the new house. I have said several times this week “I am going to miss my stove and microwave.” Little things like getting used to what light switch goes to what. Learning how to use the sprinkler & alarm systems. I anticipate hilarity to ensue concerning those! Especially if I am the one operating them! But I am excited about being able to take the boys to the neighborhood pool and play ground all summer. Sitting on my covered porch that has a ceiling fan on those HOT summer days. Enjoying our fireplace on the cold and dreary ones. Getting to know some new friends in the neighborhood. There are walking trails & several ponds with water fountains throughout the neighborhood as well. I can’t wait to explore those.
Hopefully it won’t be another month before I write again but until then……
Oh Uncle Si…..you’re the best.