Needing a Challenge

I woke up this morning…..famished!  I seriously could have eaten breakfast at 5am.  I had my coffee and that held me over for a few hours.

First, around 7am, I ate an orange along with my L-Carnitine/Raspberry Ketones.

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Then it looked like I was way ahead of schedule and would be able to make it to the gym super early. So at about 7:30 I ate a small breakfast of 1/2 a bagel thin with 1 tbsp. peanut butter, 1/2 a banana and cinnamon sprinkled on top.

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I gave it about an hour to digest as I felt my motivation and energy level waning…..I went to bed way late last night because I was up reading Catching Fire.  I know better than this. All I wanted to do was go back to bed and or eat something else.  I was soooo hungry!  I decided I would have something else to eat and give it another hour before I dragged my lazy bum to the gym.

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8:30 – Dannon Traditional Greek yogurt in strawberry, 14 almonds, 1/4 cup Cinnamon Honey Bunches of Oats and 2 tbsp. homemade granola.  Finally….not hungry anymore.

After about an hour I finally made it to the gym.

Workout

Most of the time after two days of rest, it’s easy for me to go to workout.  I am ready for it.   I start to feel gross and lazy after two days.  But there are sometimes when it’s not easy at all.  If I didn’t know better, it would be the beginning of falling off the Healthy Living Wagon.  Something came to me this morning as I was begrudgingly putting on my running shoes.

“Amanda, not working out is not an option for you.”

I don’t know where it came from, maybe it was divine, but it was one of those moments that just really lit the fire under me.  It’s really not an option for me.  I have to workout.  I have to workout for my mental health, for my physical health, for my kids, for my husband, for me.  I do LOVE working out, but I know that it would be so easy for me to just stop.  It’s not an option.  I can’t go back to living the way I was living over two years ago.

When I got there and got started I had a great workout.  Not surprisingly.  Isn’t that how it always happens?  As I was yet again running on the treadmill, I realized that I am getting very bored with my workouts lately.  Even though they have been really great, I don’t look forward to my gym workouts the way I used to. What I really wanted to do this morning was Bob’s workout because it has been such a challenge, or just SOMETHING new.  I even thought about taking Aidan to the park and doing something fun there.  But, part of working out for me is to be able to give myself a mental break & give my Mommy Brain a break.  A break from constant questions, constant re-directing, constant noise.  I started thinking I need a change and new challenge.  So I am going to step out of my comfort zone and start taking advantage of all the group exercise classes at my gym. Something that is funny to me is that I have a slight disdain for the group classes. When there are too many going on at once, I can not find a parking spot and sometimes we have to wait for a spot in the KidZone.  Well, if you can’t beat them, join them!   I have really been wanting to try a Spin Class.  They come out of that class drenched in sweat.  When Luke is out of school I am going to start going back to Bodypump.  I had to stop going because the classes are at 5 and 6 pm.  Which for me is too late.  I may get brave and try the Bootcamp.  I don't know smile  All I know is I have to do something to avoid complete burnout.

I felt pretty good after my workout but like I had completely phoned it in because I was bored.  I ran for the entire 30 min again, and then did two sets of my usual shoulder workout and 2 sets of 15 bicep curls, both with 8lb weights. Then I did 20 full push-ups.  I skipped all the other stuff I usually do because, you guessed it….bored.

My three breakfasts this morning did a great job of holding me over until almost 3pm!  I finally got hungry again and had an apple, & two pieces of the protein bread I made yesterday.

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Don’t you know peanut butter tastes better straight out of the jar?

I’m not sure what’s for dinner.  I think Morningstar Corndogs and Annie’s Mac-N-Cheese for Aidan.  Luke had a party after school complete with pizza and cookies, so fruit for him Winking smile

It was another bowl of roasted veggies & 1 cup of Archer Farms Coconut Cashew Basmati rice for me.

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I need to find some more “New Recipes” for this week.  Hopefully I can actually find some instead of looking for hours only to have found nothing and be starving for cake!

Are you in a workout rut/weight loss rut too?  This may help.

Motivation Rut Busters – Fitness Magazine.

Being Hungry is not an Emergency

“A complicated life is a miserable life, and simplicity should be sought as an essential quality of the spiritual life.” –Joyce

I read this this morning on my Facebook news feed and just loved it.  It was a great reminder to me to keep it simple.  I really try not to be “busy” all the time.  I think too many people equate being busy with being important.  We are though, busy.  It’s just part of being a parent and part of being the family of a cop.  He works long, loooooong days so most of the time it’s just me and the boys.  I think after five years, I have finally gotten used to it.  Part of the reason my routine is so important is that it helps me keep my sanity.  If one thing gets thrown into the mix, it takes time to adjust.  There are a lot of things I can’t do, a lot of things the boys can’t do, but I think that’s good because it keeps us home and together.  I hate when things get crazy around here because those are the days when I go to bed and realize I never really LOOKED at my children that day.  They are already growing up so fast, and when the days are packed, they go by in a blink and before I know it, Aidan has turned 5 and Luke will be 11.

Now that Aidan is in soccer we have practice twice a week and a game on Saturday.  And now that I have gotten some sleep and rest, I can think clearly. This morning I realized that last week, I didn’t manage my time very well.  That’s most likely the culprit of the burn out.  So I looked at my schedule of when I do things (workouts, grocery list making, shopping, date time, church, practice, food prep, etc.) and rearranged a few things so that we aren’t so “busy” on certain days.  I moved my “grocery project” to Monday & shopping on Tuesday after I pick Aidan up from school.  Before I would be up way too late Tuesday night, when I am running on nothing but fumes and Spark, making menus, clipping coupons and making a list.  Wednesday, Jeremy and I would go grocery shopping together.  But I realized that I could do it on Tuesday and free up about 2 hours on Wednesday.  Just makes things less “busy”.   Nothing like a little time management.

So today I got the grocery shopping done in record time because I had to be home when Luke got there!  And I suppose having a time constraint may have helped me to not browse items and think we needed them, therefore keeping our grocery bill at a minimum! Thumbs up I am really looking forward to working out in the morning and just coming home instead rushing through the store with poor Jeremy who needed about 10 more hours of sleep.

insomnia

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Waking up this morning was so easy. It was so good to feel like myself again. Got started early, got my coffee, quiet time and breakfast.

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Orowheat Sandwich Thin, 1 tbsp, all natural peanut butter, 1/2 tsp chia, 1/2 a small banana, sprinkles of pumpkin pie spice.

About a half hour later I was still hungry and I ate the other half of the banana.

Unlike last week, I couldn’t get to the gym quick enough.  My workout today was outstanding.  I forgot the watch part to my heart rate monitor at home, so I think because I wasn’t watching the numbers, I was just doing what felt good.  I am pretty sure I worked harder than I usually do because I was a sweaty mess at the end of my run!  I did 35 minutes on the treadmill and then 25 on the elliptical.  I really love doing it this way  because there are days I would rather be at the dentist than on the “dreadmill”.  l can look forward to the elliptical, which isn’t necessarily easier, but I can read my trashy gossip fitness magazines on it so it makes it much more enjoyable that’s for sure. Thumbs up After the cardio I did my ab challenge. Stretched out and went home feeling victorious.

Post workout snack

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Apple & 1oz almonds

Lunch

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more of Gina’s Salad & Broccoli, roasted sweet potatoes

Then this

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Jamie’s Bread

I showered up and went to pick up Aidan, then went grocery shopping.  When I ate lunch it was about 11:30 and by the end of my grocery shopping it was 3.  WAY too long for me to go without eating.  Especially considering I wasn’t super hungry after my workout and didn’t have a very substantial lunch.  I thought about bringing a bar, but I am seriously trying to not eat so many of them.  By the time I was home I was ready to eat the entire pantry and I almost did!  One thing that popped into my mind was something I read a while ago.  I wish I could remember where I read it because it was one of those quotes that changed my life.

“Being hungry is not an emergency.” 

I just kept saying that to myself over and over.  I kept thinking, this is not an emergency, you are not going to in fact “DIE” because you are not “STARVING”.  So, I calmly put away the groceries and thought rationally about what I was going to eat.

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Dannon Greek Yogurt in blueberry, 2 tbsp of homemade granola, almonds, 1/2 tsp chia

& Jamie’s Bread.

I waited a little while and was STILL hungry.  So I had another piece of bread (seriously), then a few peanuts.  Waited a little longer and then I had a chocolate chip cookie dough Larabar.  I was finally satisfied.  Finally!  I think my body just wanted that bar.  I am seriously addicted to them.  It could be worse though right?  It’s not a Snickers-A-Day addiction!

I felt my energy level spiral around 4:30 so I laid down on the couch to read a magazine and promptly crashed for about an hour!  My nap was rudely interrupted by two little boys fighting about who got to lay with Mommy.  Oh, well I needed to get up anyway!  Winking smile We had leftovers tonight for dinner. Spaghetti for the boys and you guessed it!

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The final bit of Gina’s salad.  There wasn’t much left so I put about 2 cups of mixed greens on the bottom and topped it with some fat free balsamic vinaigrette.  Delish.

I was hungry an hour later.  Annoyed So I had a small bowl of Honey Bunches of Oats and a handful of Peanut Butter Cheerios.

Tomorrow’s goal is only 1 serving of Jamie’s bread and NO BARS!  Good luck with that Amanda.

I am really looking forward to tomorrow.  Jeremy is off so I have someone to workout with, no grocery shopping, I will hopefully get my car back, & Luke and I are going to the Wednesday night service while Jeremy and Aidan are at practice. Good day all around!

Oh yeah, and this happened too

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5 year old goofin’ off on a laminated floor in socks with his hands down the back of his pants.  I must say thank you Lord that we are not in the emergency room right now.

That bed is calling my name.

Everything is Done!

I am feeling so so much better.  I have slept GREAT the past two nights, been eating right, drinking plenty of water and getting caught up on everything that has been put on the back burner for a few weeks now.  I feel like things are balanced again and this break was exactly what my recent case of burn out needed.  Party smile

After the laundry was put away, Aidan and I went outside to pull some weeds in my flower bed.  Well, I pulled weeds, Aidan squished grub worms.  I told him they were bad because they ate my flowers, he said he was “getting them” for me.  Ahhh, boys, so sweet.  Dealing with the weeds in my flower bed was one of the things that just kept nagging me but I never could find the time to get out there to do it.  It only took about a half hour to do, but sometimes half a minute is too much!  I would have liked to have gone to get a haircut and a manicure/pedicure (also on my to-do list) but I don’t think there’s enough candy in the world to bribe two little boys to sit in a beauty salon for 2 hours.  Thumbs down

I was really hungry this afternoon and had two pretty substantial snacks

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Apple, Dannon Greek Yogurt in Vanilla, Jamie’s Cinnamon Swirl Protein Bread on top.

A couple of hours later I had this…..

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Larabar Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough.

At least it was a snack, which is what its supposed to be, instead of my “meal”.  Baby Steps.

I got the menu planning, coupon clipping and grocery list making done for the week. Usually I do this on Tuesday nights but I think putting it off until then (like I have the last two weeks) has been the beginning of me being sleep deprived the rest of the week from staying up late to do it. When I start my “grocery shopping project”, I always go through and see what I already have and go from there.  It was easy this week because we still have a lot of things from last week and I can make some of the same meals again plus we have some leftovers that I had put in the freezer. Thumbs up

Tonight I made spaghetti for the boys but I really wanted some more of Gina’s salad and the veggies I roasted earlier today.

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and a roll.

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I cleaned the kitchen, folded more laundry, helped pick up the boy’s rooms, and now I am happily getting myself into bed at a very reasonable hour!  I am looking forward to getting up early and getting my Mommy’s Day Out started!