Smoothies, Playlists, Gadgets, Oh My!

I think its safe to say I have caught the running bug again.  I go through phases.  Phases when I am completely obsessed with running, then I start hurting and I have to back off, then I start doing videos and sometimes I get sick of working out all together…..Annoyed  But I have come full circle and found my deep love of running again.  It’s so simple and highly effective.

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We have a lovely little running trail in our neighborhood!  I jogged/walked (so out of shape) 3 days last week, as well as today, and I plan on it tomorrow as well!

My old heart rate monitor started acting up so I got a new one!  Nothing like a new gadget to motivate me to workout!

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I also made a new playlist.  Music fuels me more than food.

  • Anything Can Happen – Ellie Goulding
  • Blown Away – Carrie Underwood
  • Catch My Breath – Kelly Clarkson (OOOOHHHH Kelly Clarkson!)
  • Hang With Me – Robyn
  • Hello, My Name Is – Matthew West
  • Mirrors – Justin Timberlake ( I can’t stop listening to this!  I am listening to it now as a matter of fact!)
  • Next To Me – Emeli Sande (can’t stop this one either)
  • Sweet Nothing (feat. Florence Welch) – Calvin Harris
  • Times – Tenth Avenue North
  • Wake Up- All Sons and Daughters

I feel so amazing, beautiful, confident, & on top of the world after a good run….Runner’s high maybe?  I wish I could bottle it.

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The Smoothie Gods have been kind to me lately as well.  Listen, I have dumped many a concoctions down the sink.  But lately, I am obsessed with this smoothie.  I actually wrote down a recipe as well so I could recreate it!  Mostly I just dump stuff in and pray for the best!  <<<<—— clearly not a good technique.

It’s based on Dashing Dish protein shakes.  It’s her Peanut Butter Maple version that I used as a guide.

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This one has……

  • 1/2 cup fat free cottage cheese
  • ice (that I didn’t measure, possibly 1 cup of crushed ice?  Follow her number if using cubes)
  • 2 tablespoons of vanilla protein powder
  • handful of spinach
  • 2 tablespoons PB2
  • 1 tablespoon sugar free butterscotch pudding mix
  • 1 tsp. maple extract
  • 1 packet Truvia
  • 3/4 cup light vanilla soy milk ( I usually use unsweetened vanilla almond milk but ran out today Thumbs down)

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As a side note:

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A while back we found out Trixie has bladder stones and rather than pay $2,000 for surgery, we decided to try and manage them with diet.  She started acting really strange last week but wasn’t presenting any of the symptoms we were told to look out for.  Then one morning (about day 3 of the strange behavior) she came in from using the yard whimpering.  That afternoon Jeremy took her in.  I couldn’t bare the bad news I knew was coming.  I asked that somehow God would intervene. I didn’t know how in the world he would, but I asked anyway.  Jeremy came home and made the boys go to their rooms and brought me into our bedroom.  I felt tears welling up and my throat closing.  He said “They have to come out.”  I said “We cant….” He said, “Dr. Franklin said he would do it for this….” Then he handed me a sheet of paper.  The total was circled.  $342   I was so overwhelmed with joy!!!  TRIXIE LIVES!!!!!!

So Wednesday morning she is scheduled for surgery!

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Relatively Speaking

You know how when you go without something you appreciate it that much more when you get it back?  Going without sleep for so long when the boys were babies makes me appreciate it so much more now.  I appreciate my husband being home at night because he worked nights for so long.  I appreciate the abundance of healthy food that I have because I ate so poorly for so long.  I appreciate the health of my children after they have been ill.  I appreciate a shower that stays warm all the way til the end when the weather warms back up.  And now, I appreciate the complete peace and serenity I feel now that the hard part of selling/buying a house is behind us.  Actually packing and moving is going to be a cake walk, relatively speaking.  I am looking forward to having a “normal” life again.  No interruptions.  No making sure the house is spotless before I get on with the rest of my day.  No more having to be out of the house for hours at a time when all I want to do is sleep and watch T.V.  No more wondering if today’s appointment will be THE ONE.  Having to read on a daily basis why someone doesn’t like your home. No more circling the neighborhood when an appointment is going over their time, having to pee so bad you are willing to pull over and squat.  Did I just say that?  Yes I did.  I never ever ever could have imagined how difficult and stressful this process would be.  You know when you go to visit a new doctor and they have you fill out that form asking if you have experienced any of the following in the last year?

  • Divorce
  • Death in the family
  • Loss of Job
  • Serious Illness
  • a MOVE

Yeah, I get that now.

It’s a miracle and by the grace of GOD that Jeremy and I are still married.  No I am kidding, but seriously…..it IS by grace that Jeremy didn’t leave me!  On the contrary, we are closer than ever so I wouldn’t trade the last 4 months for anything in the world.

Good news first…..we got the house we wanted.  Praise God.  But not without a fight.

The house we wanted had been on the market for 280 days…..nothing wrong with it at all just priced a little high, market slow…..honestly, I believe it was saved for us.  After seeing it again last week and loving it, I said “We need to put an offer on this place immediately, like this minute…”  I knew it, I could feel it….someone else was going to offer soon…possibly even that moment.  Mike reassured us that there was no other offer on it but I just knew….. Our offer was low but we weren’t asking for closing costs and accepting it in “as is” condition.  There were a few minor things that need to be addressed, light bulbs out, nail pops exposed etc.. …..nothing we haven’t fixed on our current home. I felt comfortable with our offer.  We had some issues getting our paper work emailed back to Mike so he was going to come by our house late that evening after work to pick it up.  It was 7:30 pm, I was feeling down right anxious because I knew we needed to get that offer in ASAP.  Sure enough, sometimes I swear I am psychic, Mike calls.  “There is another offer.”  My heart sank and my stomach churned.  I may have teared up a little. There goes the sweet slumber I was hoping for.  Thankfully because we knew about the other offer and hadn’t turned ours in yet…..we had the upper hand in the matter and were able to change our offer last minute to a more competitive one.  Ultimately, we won the house!  HIGH FIVES ALL AROUND!  We are set to close March 11 and will be moving out the next few days after that!  What a great way to spend Spring Break!

The very last stress inducing event was our buyer’s inspection on Friday morning.  I started out the morning with a clogged potty.  Then the milk for my oats boiled over and burned in the stove. We opened up the back door to let the smoke air out and Rya the cat escaped.  On her little adventure outside she ate some grass which induced vomiting…..of course not on the tile but the carpet.  I said out loud with a smile and in a very friendly manner to who or whatever was causing the issues.….”Nothing can shut what the Father has oooooopeeeened!  Just so ya know!”  That fixed that.  I felt good leaving the house that day. Confident that no issue would arise.  We haven’t heard anything back about the inspection and Mike said when there is a problem, they address it immediately.  No news is good news.  We have the inspection on the new house Wednesday morning and  I am confident that will go smoothly as well.

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Aidan turned 6 on Saturday.

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We had a very low key event.  There is no denying that he is my child.  I asked him a month ago if he wanted to have a “Pump It Up” party and invite all his classmates and friends.  His response?

“Ooooooh noooooo way.  It’s too loud in there and the kids get super duper crazy. I just want you and me and Daddy and Luke and Rya and Early and Trixie at our house where its peaceful and quiet.”

What?  I didn’t think I could love this child anymore than I already did.

On Friday morning I asked him what kind of cake he wanted for his birthday.  His response?

“I don’t want a cake, I don’t want a party, I just want white donuts.”

Wow…..

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He does love him some chocolate chip cookies so I made him a giant one, and yes, I did pile a bunch of white donuts on the birthday platter and served it to him for breakfast.

I am so happy right now.  I can’t even explain it.  I am just over the moon.  I feel so light and full of excitement.  I can’t wait to start packing.  I can’t wait to start making our new house our own.  I am so happy to be thinking happy thoughts again instead of “Good God, when will this ever end?  Are you even there?  Have you forgotten us?”  Or worse trying not to think at all.

This week I will be getting back to my P90X.  I had to put it on hold while we dealt with life last week.  Each day I set aside the time for it and it just never got done.  I really tried to follow the diet at least but even threw that out the window this weekend.  It was too much.  But…..I am getting right back on that horse and galloping my way to being bikini ready!

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123 Days

The last 123 days have been some of the hardest days of my life and I wouldn’t change a single moment of any of them.

I have gone from bright eyed and full of hope and excitement!

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To questioning whether Jeremy and I were doing the right thing.

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To whether or not I deserved the abundance that God promises me in His word.

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To being angry at God, then having buried emotional baggage rear it’s ugly head at me.

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To suddenly coming to the understanding that the trials I face make me stronger.

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To completely surrendering to God’s plan, not mine, for my life.

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To having a peace in my spirit that surpasses all understanding. Believing beyond a shadow of a doubt that I am deserving of His abundance and trusting Him more than I ever have in my life.

Finally finally, in an interesting turn of events, we have accepted an amazing offer that was over and above what we ever expected. God is GOOD.

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One day last week I had a last minute showing request.  I almost didn’t accept it.  But…..I did anyway.  I drove down the street (without shoes on) and watched a man drive up to our house, walk around our property, go into the house, come out and leave.  What in the world?  Jeremy called Mike (our realtor) and asked if that was normal.  Apparently it is….so I was like ok whatevs……that night Mike called us with an offer from that man!!!  Turns out he was from an investment firm who buys houses and rents them out.  The offer was ok….better than the Lowballers (funny story about that another time).  So we started working on accepting the official offer and then went to look at houses the next day.  With this offer there were a lot of hoops we were going to have to jump through.  A lot of things that were on their terms. First, they weren’t going to give us time after closing to close on our own home.  Then they weren’t going to do any inspections, then they were…..

The morning we were going to meet with Mike to look at houses we got a showing request for that afternoon.  I sort of laughed it off.  I checked to see who it was, to see if it was a second showing or not, and I didn’t recognize the name.  I approved it but we didn’t take any extra measures to make the house show ready like we normally do.  I mean we cleaned like we normally do but not with OCD-like detail.

When we met Mike he said “Hey guys you know that showing you have today? They are going to make an offer.” Jeremy and I were so confused.  Say what?!  They had been to see the house before but had a different realtor. That’s why I didn’t recognize the name.  I am going to assume they weren’t happy with her, called the number on our for sale sign and were assigned one of the agents who works in Mike’s office.  When he spoke with their realtor he told her “It better be something significant because what they are entertaining now is real pretty.”  That afternoon after looking at 5 houses, only one of which we liked that was also way overpriced, we were feeling really nervous.  We were looking at having to be out of our house in a month & having to rent something!!!  Not what we had in mind.  …..The cash deal was making Jeremy and I feel very uncomfortable.   I told Jeremy that ultimately, this was our house to sell and it would be on our terms, not theirs.

Ever true to his word, Mike called us later that afternoon and told us he had sent the offer from the couple via e-mail.  Sadly, it wasn’t any better than the cash offer and we were a bit disappointed. Then  I remembered something I had just read about making offers.  “The buyer’s offer will be low and is only an invitation to start negotiations.”  I told Jeremy, “They don’t know what the other offer is. They had to start somewhere. Let’s counter.”  They had asked for closing costs so we accepted the offer minus the closing costs.  That would have us making 2,750 MORE than the cash offer.  It ended up being exactly what our asking price was.  There were so many things to consider.  I felt the need to devour a bag of Peanut M&M’s.  I told Jeremy that if it weren’t for the cash offer we wouldn’t think twice about this.  We would be stupid not to take the extra cash.  The worst thing that could happen is that it could all fall through and we would be back on the market.  And you know what?  So what.  We’ve been doing it this long, we can keep doing it.  We are not desperate, we have 5 or 6 other people out there who have loved our house and will be back.  Decision made.

That night I couldn’t go to sleep nor stay asleep.  We accepted the offer officially and now….WE HAVE THE BIG FAT RED PENDING BANNER!!!!!!

But wait, there is still the issue of not having a house to move into……

Since we started looking at houses 4 months ago, there has been one favorite that has remained.  The only problem was that the living room was set up in such a way that wouldn’t allow for our oversized furniture.  We have a HUGE living room and we filled it up with huge furniture and a gargantuan entertainment center that took Jeremy almost a year to build.  Out of the blue, I am convinced it was divine intervention, Jeremy said,  “Amanda…..our couch comes apart.”  “What?” “Yeah, LOOK!”  He unconnected it and we moved it apart.

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I couldn’t believe it!  With what I am sure were Puss N Boots eyes,  I said “JEREMY…..this changes everything!!!!”  So we got on the phone with Mike and got all the goods on the house.  We are going to look at it again tomorrow at 2!!!!!  YIPPEEEE!  I have this intense sense of urgency to put an offer on it because I can just feel other people’s eyes on MY HOUSE!!!!

But…..deep in my heart.  I know.  That.  It has been on the market all this time, if He has been saving it for us….He will continue to do so.  If not, then He will provide something else.  Even if we have to rent some little shack for a few months…..the trust is there.

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Accepting an offer on our part is only half the battle. We still have inspections to pass and our own offer and inspections to get through.   I remain confident that it will be easy sailing from this point forward.

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No Ray of Sunshine

I don’t know how to effectively express the frustration I feel over the selling of this house.  We have been SO close so many times.  Today we had two showings and one of them said they liked ours the best but are now considering building.  Will some one please stick a ^($*&%()#@#@$# fork in my eye now please?  I have had emotional break down after emotional break down, my stomach is in knots over the whole thing and I can’t sleep.  I can’t tell you how many times I have wanted to throw in the towel.  We came VERY close last week after the people wrote a %(*^*&#()%^& offer but backed out last minute……I just feel we are so close and can’t give up now……Don't give upvia

So……give up I shall not…….

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Maybe I will start asking Luke to use the force…..

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Dinner last night was REALLY good.

I picked up a frozen dinner at this little grocery store we like to go to called ALDI.

It’s really hit or miss there but they have a lot of natural foods and are super inexpensive because you bag your own groceries and have to use a quarter to get a basket.  When you return your basket, you get your quarter back.  It’s kind of fun.  What?  Hey….. I said I am a simple girl!

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I ate the frozen dinner with some Wheat Thins and some chipotle hummus.  Later I had a  “no sugar added” (whatever that means) fudge pop for dessert.

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All I wanted to do today was lay in bed, watch T.V., read, sleep, watch T.V., sleep.  But no, at 7:30 am I get a phone call from the showing company requesting approval for an appointment at 11am.  I am so thankful we have lots of showings, but on the real…..I am REALLY over it.  Instead of being a complete sloth today I got my house show ready, got myself ready and we left for a few hours in the cold and rain.  Later we got a request for 3-4 so we ended up staying out all afternoon.  We went to Toys R Us to exchange some duplicate gifts, The Children’s Place for some new jeans and then AIDAN got a treat for being so good.  I will choose not to speak about Luke today.  Let’s just say 11 yr. old boys (well MY 11 yr. old boy) would rather clean toilets than go shopping for clothes.  I try to get them things while I am out by myself,  but because he has grown about a foot in the last 4 months, I am not ever sure of his size.  He pretty much hates me at this point in the day.  It’s ok….I have the power to withhold an Itouch until I feel like giving it back.  Right now…..NEVER.  He is darn lucky that Jeremy is the single most patient man IN THE WORLD…..that’s not an exaggeration either.

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Anyway……

Like I said my stomach has been in knots so I haven’t been the best example of a highly nutritious eater as of late…..

Breakfast

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I got these for the boys but it’s the only thing that sounded good to me this morning.

Chobani Greek Yogurt bite in Raspberry with Dark Chocolate.  I added a serving of almonds.  It was superb!!!  I have been trying to avoid the Greek yogurts because they are so high in sugar but I love this smaller portion.   It was the perfect thing this morning.

I skipped lunch….don’t judge me…..but brought one of these for when my appetite returned later.

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I am queen of the bars lately! This one was REALLY good!  Like a brownie!

Odwalla  Chocolate Peanut Butter Protein Bar

After our horrific afternoon I needed a pick me up…..

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A Starbucks Misto to make it all better.

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When I got home I got an itch to make homemade Lara Bars!

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I used the recipe from DAMY for the pecan pie Larabar. For the other, I am proud to say I made my own creation and it wasn’t a complete mess.

Using the measurement rules from her site I put together the following:

Peanut Butter Pecan Larabars

1/3 cup pitted chopped dates

1/2 cup chopped pecans

1 tbsp. natural peanut butter

1/2 tsp. vanilla

dash of cinnamon

dash of sea salt

Nutritional Info:

Makes 4 bars

170 calories; 13g carbs; 13g fat; 3g fibers; 10g sugars; 3 protein

I ate countless dates, almonds and pecans which was the best part of my experiment as well as tasting the end product.

I am about ready to call it a day.  After sleeping for about zero hours last night PLUS a nightmare…..I am exhausted. 

I thank the Lord for new days

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I am struggling today ya’ll.  I was good until I saw Aidan’s teacher.  I hugged her and then we both started crying as the feelings of helplessness arose once again.  I am trying with all my strength to NOT BE AFRAID.   Afraid for my own children who are innocently going about their day while I am spending every moment seeking comfort in Christmas music and constant prayer.  I didn’t realize today would be so hard.   I go through moments of peace and moments of sadness.  Needless to say I can’t wait to go get my babies today!!!!

It took a while to get an appetite worked up but I made a yummy lunch today!  I had an apple and a cheese stick with a piece of turkey wrapped around it….no picture, sorry….it was as I was trying to decide what I wanted…an apple is always a good way to start a meal.

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Carrots, hummus and sweet potato chips.  I had already eaten some before this picture but trust me there were more chips and carrots eaten!!!

Here’s your random silly photo for the day.

Mom: Take a picture with me

Luke: OK!

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I need to get some of my to-do list done but I am having a hard time getting motivated and moving forward.  Just thinking about the parents. Parents who won’t be able to give their babies their Christmas gifts that I am sure are already purchased and in a secret place. It paralyzes me.  I must though.  I must not live with a troubled heart.  Sometimes the very thing you don’t want to do is the thing that will make you feel better.  I must overcome evil with good.  Romans 12:21.  So I will go wrap my precious children’s gifts and maybe bake them some cookies.  I will pray for those parents who can’t and thank God for mine over and over and over.

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T’was a week before Christmas

and I am up to my ears in all things Christmas.  I wouldn’t change a thing but, it is SO important that I don’t get so caught up in the doing that I forget the whying….What?  I don’t know….Confused smile

Anyway, I thought I would try to check in quickly….to catch up.  I should be wrapping presents. That was on my “to-do” list today and I haven’t gotten to it yet.  I’ve reached that point where I still have so much I didn’t get done today that I have decided to just give up and blog instead. I’ll try again tomorrow!   We’ll see how “quick” I can actually make this!!

So…..where do I start?

Tuesday

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Tuesday was Luke’s first Orchestra concert.  I was so proud.  I mean, let’s be honest, they are 11 year olds who have been playing for 3 months. I was prepared to have my ears bleed.  But NO!  They were fantastic!!!  The 6th graders played Canon in D which is my all time favorite song probably EVER.  I was sold.  It made me want to go to a big time show.  I am trying to get Jer to buy tickets to the Dallas Symphony for us….like every show.  Isn’t that season tickets or something?  Yes please!

Aidan and The Giant Nutcracker.  He is obsessed with them.  Every time we see one it’s the same thing.  “Mommy!  A Nutcracker! LOOK!”  Plays with the handle, sticks his fingers in the mouth, pretends its eating him, laughs hysterically…..

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After the concert we stopped at CFA for dinner.

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Oh no, they don’t belong to each other AT ALL!

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Wednesday

Wednesday was our Date Day.  We finished up our Christmas shopping FINALLY! I don’t know how families with more than two children do it. Much respect. We had planned on going to see Silver Linings (Bradley Cooper? Yes please!) but the only showing was at 1:50 so that was a no-go.  We also ended up looking for a new desk….. for the office I will have eventually have…… in our new house…..when ever we actually sell our house!  Don’t get me started on that…..it will happen….it will happen….it will happen……Annoyed

Lets change the subject and look at some cute things….

This little brat is too much.

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He hates that cat…..but she sure does love him!

I was feeling a little sassy on my Date Day so I wore my “Sassy Pants”.  I rarely wear these.  I have to be in just the right mood to pull them off.

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Top and Sweater: Ross

Hot Pink Sassy Pants: Honestly I can’t remember the name but it’s a store in the mall.   It’s like Forever 21 or Charlotte Russe.

Boots: Payless

We ate lunch at Corner Bakery again and I got my special Starbucks treat.  Perfect Day with my love.

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Thursday

I don’t remember Thursday…..is that bad or what?

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Friday

Ugh, Friday….not a good day.  I woke up feeling absolutely terrible with a number of unrelated ailments that kept me in bed all day.  The only thing good about days like that are being able to catch up on some reading and Dr. Oz.  I was also glued to Fox News with tissues.  I was going to post that day but felt it was highly irrelevant.  I don’t even have words to describe how heartbroken I was.  I couldn’t keep my mind from going to those dark places that only a parent knows about.  It was all I could do to not walk….no run over to the school and get my kids.  I cried as I saw them walking up the steps and hugged them in a way I have never hugged them before.  There are so many opinions out there that I agree & disagree with to an extent.  But all I am going to say is God help us all.

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This was Friday night.  If it weren’t for Jeremy saying nay, I would have had a slumber party with two little precious babies.  I didn’t want them even a foot from me.

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Saturday

I woke up Saturday morning with such a heavy HEAVY heart.  I was reminded of how I felt after 9-11.  I felt this vague sense of guilt as though I had an obligation to mourn with those who lost their children.  An obligation to watch the news for hours on end. To cry until I had no tears left.  But after reading a post by someone who I can’t remember now, I realized that I absolutely can not do that.

“Peace I leave with you, my peace I give to you.  I do not give as the world gives.  Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.” John 14:27

“For God did not give us a spirit of fear, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline.” 2 Timothy 1:7

I was reminded to lift those who mourn up to God in prayer, pray constantly for all those involved and to live my precious life not in mourning or in fear, but in love and in power and in self control.  We never ever know when will be our last moments here in this earth.

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After all that deep spiritual stuff,  I had some power shopping to do…..grocery shopping that is.  Am I the only who has a love hate relationship with grocery shopping?  I love a full pantry and fridge, but I hate actually going to get the stuff.

After grocery shopping pretty much all day,  I prepped some food for Jeremy to take to work this week.  Since he is gone for 15 hours a day, he has to pack a snack, lunch, snack and more snacks….actually they are small meals for most people.  He can stop drinking cokes and lose weight.  I have to basically eat spinach all day in order to lose .5 lb. Yes, I might hate him a little for that.  Anyway…..I was buying him frozen meals like Healthy Choice or Lean Cuisines….but it killed me inside a little each week to do that.  The man needs food, like real food, like a lot of food.  But he is also health conscience.  Therein lies the conundrum.  Healthy food with a lot of good fats and calories…..He is also on board with me to nix the sugar and excess carbs in our diet.  So during lunch on our Date Day we brainstormed and came up with the most obvious solution.  I couldn’t believe I hadn’t thought of this before! I would make him homemade Lean Cuisines!!!!  I decided I would make a one dish each Saturday just for him to take for his lunches the next week.  When I make dinner for the family, we eat the leftovers until they are gone in order to stretch our grocery budget out.  So there are no leftovers for him to take to work.  I am thinking casseroles, a batch of veggies, brown rice, fish, chicken, turkey burgers ect.  Something that will make 3-4 servings.

This week I baked some fish with lemon pepper seasoning, roasted some frozen veggies and cooked up a batch of brown rice.

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I packed them in some containers.  3 for the 3 days he works this week.

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And stacked them in the fridge for easy access and visibility at 5am.

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I felt 100% better about his fuel for the week.

I also made some “Quick Energy Bites” for him to replace his Clif Bars.

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There are several variations of these all over the internet. I’ll post the one I use with my variations sometime this week!

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Sunday

So that brings us to today…..finally.  I woke up feeling pretty terrible with those same “ailments” as Friday.  I was feeling better on Saturday but they came back today.  I was scheduled to serve in the nursery this morning at church but I just couldn’t get myself together, let alone two children and the house picked up in case of a last minute showing.  So I had to call in.  I was so sad.  I SO look forward to my “baby fix” each week.  As the morning went on I started to feel better and got out and about this afternoon while The Boys were at a birthday party.  I went to the library in search for a particular book I have been wanting to read.  Couldn’t find it there so I went to Garden Ridge (I saw it there once) Target, Barnes & Noble, then Walmart.  I must REALLY want this book if I (person who would rather go to the dentist than be in a crowd of people) braved the mall 11 days before Christmas.  I couldn’t get in OR out of there!  Parking was MAD!  But….after all that, sadly I still can’t find my book.  Fortunately my mother-in-law has it!  Too bad she lives 300 miles away!  She is bringing it to me on Friday when they come for Christmas!

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Well, that took much longer than thought…..so alas I must bid you adieu….Hopefully it won’t be another week before I post again!

Not Happ’nin…..

Today I wanted to try out my “new” – as in I bought it about 3 months ago and haven’t opened it until today – workout video.

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Jillian’s Yoga Meltdown

I did Level 2 of 30 day Shred and then popped my “yoga” video in.  I should have known this wasn’t your normal yoga video.  I lasted  5 minutes before realizing this was yoga on steroids.  After doing Level 2 of Shred, this one was not happ’nin today!  Instead I looked for a yoga video on AT&T’s On Demand.  I didn’t find yoga but I did find a lame 20 min stretch video.  I did that for 10 min and then decided to do some of my own yoga stretches.  Annoyed

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The mystery of the Sunday afternoon no-show has been solved.  This time the excuse seems legit.  We got a message today saying they ran out of time and the kids ran out of energy so they will try to show the house on Saturday. Awesome!  We also got some good feedback about one of the showings on Saturday,  “House showed well. Clients liked the layout and space.”  That made me laugh because the other showing from that day said “House showed beautifully, like a model.  Clients didn’t like the layout or how the house was open from front to back.”  Geez Louise!   Last night I may or may not have had an emotional breakdown over this whole process after yet another one of our favorite houses went under contract.  One of our other favorites went under contract earlier this week.  But today I am feeling much better and still standing strong in believing our time will come soon.  Isn’t that funny how a good cry can make everything just seem better?

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I was super hungry this morning.  I started out with a good bowl of oatmeal.

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Today I added half a banana on top hoping it would last a little longer than yesterday.

I really need to get some more eggs for the morning because I was hungry two hours after this.

Snack #1 at 10am was an apple and a handful of almonds

Snack #2 at 11:30 am was 2 oz. of turkey and a low fat cheese stick.

I was good after that for a while.  I watched Dr.Oz, folded some laundry, talked to my friend and then did my workout.  I got hungry again around 3 but had to go get Aidan so I ate when I got home.

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I had some leftovers from dinner last night.

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Which was a spoonful of brown rice, Green Giant Tuscan Seasoned broccoli and some chicken apple sausage.

I also had an apple and another handful of almonds.  Hungry girl today!

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Today in Luke’s folder was a letter from the school nurse.

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This makes me so sad.  While I am glad that the school is being pro-active, just the fact that they are testing elementary children for Type 2 diabetes is heart-breaking.  When is the world going to wake up and stop accepting obesity (even just being “over-weight”) as a normal thing?  I wish there was more that I could do, but for now I must continue to be the change I would like to see in the world.

Ho hum……

Since Aidan has started school, Mondays and Tuesdays are my own personal “weekend”.  I have the house all to myself and will get some really good cleaning done, workout, do some food prep, go to B&N or the library….they are just you know…..Ho Hum kind of days & lovely.

Today started at about 1am when I woke up and was wide awake until sometime after 3am.  My alarm went off at 5am and I decided to sleep until 6am.  I had my coffee, ate a really good breakfast.  I took pictures of all my food today but for whatever reason my phone doesn’t want to send them!!!  Blergh!  Hopefully I will be able to insert them later.

2 hard-boiled eggs, a piece of whole wheat toast with a bit of fat free cream cheese and strawberry preserves, and a tangerine.  Super Yummy!!

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A few hours later I had an apple and some almonds.

I got the house cleaned up and then made some granola….

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I also baked some sweet potatoes.

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I  had a handful of fresh granola (victory!) and a handful of almonds.

I had every intention of working out but it never happened.  We got a showing request for 2pm-3pm and I spent the rest of the time making sure the house was immaculate.

At about 12:30 I went to the library to see if they had a few books I am wanting to read and was going to return home about 1:45 so I could wait down the street for the buyers to see the house and then I could go back in.  Most of the time they come at the beginning of the appointment time and are only there for 10-15 minutes.  I picked up a new book at the library, “Paleoista”,

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and returned to set up shop down the street for few minutes….An hour later, they never showed and I was stuck outside in my car for an hour…..

I had planned on working out after the buyers left and before I had to go pick up Aidan from school.  But since I was stuck out there for an hour, that didn’t happen.  Maybe I can get a workout in later this evening.

This isn’t the first time that happened.  In fact it happened yesterday.  At about 1:30 on Sunday I received a showing request for 4-5pm.  So I drove myself down the street at about 3:30, because they have been known to show up 30 min early, and I waited and waited and waited until 4:50 when I decided they weren’t going to show up and I went back home.

Needless to say I am a little annoyed.  But I won’t lose heart or let it bother me because I believe our time is coming!  Our patience is just being tested beyond belief obviously.  Remember I wrote about how we almost had a buyer?  They asked for a seller’s disclosure and came for a second showing only to decide last minute that they wanted to move further west.  Our realtor called us on Saturday and said that their realtor called him and said that moving to that area didn’t work out and asked if our house was still available.  So……that’s kind of exciting.  But I’m not holding my breath on that one or expecting to hear anything else anytime soon.  Since it’s been about a month since they came for the second showing, there have been more houses put on the market and I am sure they will want to check those out first.

I had a yummy snack when I got home from picking Aidan up.

A green bell pepper with 2 tbsp. fat free cream cheese, a cheese stick and some peanuts.

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I have to figure out what I am going to feed my kids.  Since my day was interrupted I didn’t get everything done today that I needed.  I hope they will be happy with grilled cheese!!!!

Not for the Faint

I am quickly realizing that I have serious OCD tendencies.  I have always known this but they are rearing their ugly little heads as of late…Jeremy does too by the way.  His psych exam for the PD even confirmed it!  He’s my lobster.  Anyway, I digress…..Ok, so not the kind where I open and close the door 20 times, but the kind where I obsessively think about things over and over and overrrrrrr. I never ever solve anything this way. I always kick myself in the butt though for wasting so much mind energy on these things.

Take this for example.  There is a particular house I am IN freaking LOVE with…..and I check the status of it like 20 times a day.  Has the price dropped?  Has it gone under contract?  Regardless of the fact that I would immediately get an email if either were the case……I still check it.  I have issues.  So the last few days I have really been working on not trying to control the situation.  If it’s meant to be it will be, if not, there is something better for us.  It’s all about trust in the one who’s really in control of my life here, and it isn’t me.

We listed our house officially on Saturday and Sunday morning as I am walking into church I get a phone call asking to approve an appointment for that afternoon.  I thought “Oh dear God already?  That was quick!”  I mistakenly got my hopes up that for some freakish reason we would sell the house that day.  Hey, it happened to my friend!  Sadly we didn’t hear anything back and I got a little sad.  Nor have we gotten anymore calls to see the house since.  Our realtor (Mike) uses a professional photographer and we are having to wait until tomorrow to have photos taken.  I know once those are up, (hopefully) I will have to be vacating the premises many times a day (hello Target) so people can look through my cabinets and closets.

I haven’t been able to workout for 2 weeks since I had the stiches put in.  Without that outlet, being able to focus on something else other than keeping my house spotless, I am sure my anxiety is super elevated which contributes to the OCDing over houses.  I am normally super laid back but lately I feel like a rabid dog!

Buying/Selling a house = not for the faint.

I have some good news!!! TODAY…..I got the stiches out & steri-strips in!  Fun times!  Annoyed The other good news is that she said I could wait to have those other two spots biopsied at my normal 4-6 month check up.  The 3rd good news is that she cleared me to start running again!!!  Jillian & her plyometric torture will have to wait a while but running is ok’d!  I found it interesting that the skin is only at about 15% strength right now.  I still have to be careful and keep the area bandaged for further healing and reducing scarring.  I keep thinking I am very lucky this wasn’t in a visible area because it’s really not pretty!  SUNSCREEN my friends!  SUNSCREEN!

I would like to publicly thank my amazing husband for holding my hand through both processes.  The man deals with the most gruesome of situations like a champ, but felt slightly faint seeing his bride get cut up!  Sweet thing.  What a man!

Skin Cancer = not for the faint

I haven’t really eaten anything new and exciting lately except for two new shakes.  Aidan is still being a complete brat about anything that isn’t peanut butter, honey and bread or Chick-Fil-A so I am just over trying new recipes right now.  He threw a tantrum on Sunday because Luke and I wanted to go to Sweet Tomatoes and he didn’t.

“Chick-Fil-A isn’t open on Sunday Aidan James!  We are going to SWEET TOMATOES!”

When we got there he ate two bites of pizza bread and two bites of ice cream.. *EYEROLL* Steaming mad

So my shakes…..

This one was Dashing Dish inspired

“Lemon Cream Pie Protein Shake”

I used her base and added 2 tbsp. sugar free lemon pudding mix, & vanilla (to taste).   I also added 1 tbsp. chia seed.  I loved this one!

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This morning I made her Caramel Apple Pie Protein Shake

It was so spot on!  Delish!

I used Walden Farms Caramel Syrup instead of caramel extract because I couldn’t find it.  This was a GREAT substitution.  I was going to use sugar free caramel syrup but I saw that there were 90 calories in 2 tbsp. and there was no way that was going to happen.

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So my boys…..my boys, my boys……

Luke's $ Ring

We have discovered Luke’s hidden talent.  Yes, that is a dollar bill folded into a ring! You want to know what he did with this?  It went into the offering tray the next day!

We won’t talk about how I witnessed him ALMOST getting hit by a car while he was riding his bike and crossing the street without looking (<—–knows better) while I was walking Trixie and Aidan was riding his bike in front of me.  No, we won’t talk about the complete come apart I had out in public in our neighborhood.  You know the kind where you are so freaked out that they are in trouble out of love and fear? He isn’t allowed to ride his bike ever again (<—- blatant lie).

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This would be Aidan’s report card…..

Aidan's 1st Report Card

Yes, my kindergartener. I don’t even know how to begin to explain it. It took two cups of coffee to get through and I’m still having to go back to it to make sure I understand what it’s saying.  He is doing great and even exceeded expectations in the Social and Emotional evaluation!  Way to Go A.J.!!!!  I must mention that while Luke’s wasn’t quite as spectacular of a presentation, he did make straight A’s!

I am really looking forward to getting a little bit of a jog in tomorrow.  I am sure it will be more of a walk but at least it will be a little something!  Slow and Steady!

Long Story

In 2008 Jeremy and I were living in a 1200 sq. ft., 2 bedroom apartment with our 6 year old and 1 year old sharing a bedroom.  We knew we needed a bigger place, ideally a house, but we didn’t have a small fortune to be able to buy one.  Til this day, I believe the only reason we were in a house 1 year later, was because of Jeremy’s faith and fervent prayer. His faith that some how, some way, when there seemed to be no way, God would provide.

In April 2009, the lease on our apartment was about to be up for renewal and the thought of spending another day in that apartment to me was unbearable.  We began looking for a house and realized that if we were going to buy a house, we would still need a small fortune.  Even though we had a little saved up, it would never be enough.  A long time friend of mine, who also has her realtor license, told me about HUD homes and foreclosures.  This was exciting news for us because if we could find one, it would be THE answer to all of our prayers.  All we would need was $100 to put down on the home and we could finance the closing costs into our mortgage.  We could do this!!!!  The problem?….Actually finding one.  We contacted a realtor to help us and she showed us one house…..just one.  One that happened to not have a bid on it already and that wasn’t a complete disaster.

When we drove up to the house I fell in love.  It was beautiful.  It seemed like a mansion to me.  One of the highest rated elementary schools in our town was right across the street.  It was huge, had tons of windows and was a blank canvas for me to paint and decorate exactly how I wanted it!  The realtor was impressed by the condition of the house. Not all HUD homes or foreclosures have been lived in by heathens.  Some folks have simply fallen on hard times or were victims of the variable interest rate fiasco.  We immediately put a bid on the home and didn’t sleep for a few days praying it would be ours.

A few days later it was ours.  Just in the nick of time too because our lease expired in just a few weeks.  I couldn’t pack up fast enough!  We were in that house everyday for two weeks.

We painted every white wall there was.

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I had lived with white walls for 5 years. We changed out light fixtures, door handles, put in ceiling fans, & cleaned.

We played in the new backyard

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and hunted lady bugs.

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It was a glorious time.

I thanked Jeremy for having the faith and I thanked God for showing me that He is faithful.

We always thought that this would be our forever home.  We had a lot of things we were going to do to the house.  New fence, replace all the laminate with ceramic or travertine, remodel the master bath, recess lighting, landscaping, sprinkler system.  These were our plans 3 1/2 years ago and until two weeks ago where still just that……plans.  Since January our “next project” was to lay tile in the laundry room.  Jeremy was building an entire cabinet system for me and had finished the first shelf.

But honestly, who has time for that?  Not us that’s for sure.  And honestly, who has the thousands of dollars to do all of that?  NOT us that is FOR SURE!  I guess that wasn’t something we really thought about.

The question for months has been “When?”.  “When Jeremy?  When exactly are we going to do this?”  “I think we should just hire some one.”  “No, we ARE NOT hiring someone to do something I can do myself for a quarter of the price.”  He usually got an eyeroll from me and that was the end of that.  The truth is that yes he absolutely could do all of these things himself and I knew that.  But he absolutely doesn’t have the time nor the help he needs to do them.  I am definitely no help.  I can hold stuff and that’s about it!

So two weeks ago I was incredibly frustrated with the fact that we still had yet to pick out tile or even a color to paint “my new laundry room”.  Life is crazy around here, just when we think we have time to get a project done, something comes up, someone gets sick, appointments are made, tired mom and dad just need a day off, and the list goes on and on.

So yet again, per usual, the conversation started like this.

“Jeremy, when are we going to fix the fence?”

“When we finish the laundry room.”

“When are we going to pick out tile?”

When, when, when.

That’s when the conversation took an unusual turn from the norm.

“Jeremy, I want a new house.”

It’s something that had been on my heart for awhile, but I never said it out loud. I really tried to be content with what I had. I mean come on! Some people don’t even have beds to sleep in Amanda, get over it! So what, you don’t have a separate shower form the tub, some people don’t even have showers. Let alone warm, clean water to bathe with.

He was taken by surprised and I think a little scared!

“Not a mansion, not even a bigger house. Just one that already has everything we want.  You know we have a lot of equity in this house and could make enough on it in order to buy a fancier house.  You know the interest rates are freaking amazing right now.  I don’t want the boys going to ________ Junior High and neither of us want them at  ______ High School.  We can move a little further south and they’d be in one of the best school districts in this area.  You know we wished we could have afforded a house down there in the first place and now we can…..”

He didn’t say much but apparently I was pretty convincing and part of me suspects he had been having the same thoughts but hadn’t said them out loud either.

I left because I was just frustrated and we also needed milk…..

When I got back he said, “Hey! I found a pretty house.”

The next week we started cleaning, fixing up little things around the house, taking stuff to Goodwill, and obsessing over houses on-line because………..

We are putting our house on the market!

The night of the “life changing conversation” I prayed.

“Is this what you want for us?  I thought this house was a gift from you, an incredible blessing.  I thought this was where we would be forever.”

“This was my gift to you.  This was a stepping stone.  You needed a house, I provided one.  You would never have been able to get to where I want you and where your heart truly desires to be if it weren’t for this house. It’s time to move on.”

So many other encouraging words have spoken into my heart and I have just been in awe of His great love for me, Jeremy, Luke and Aidan.  He truly gives you the desires of your heart.  Even when you don’t speak them out loud, He knows.  There is so much more I could say about the way God is moving in our lives, and how he has changed my life over the past year but it is just unspeakable the way things are falling together.

Blessed is She

I am sure you have guessed by now that this would be our “exciting news!” We had our 2nd “exciting news” meeting this afternoon.  I haven’t been that nervous/excited since I rode The Superman for the 1st time.  Waiting, waiting, waiting. “Oh should I do this? I am doing this…I can’t change my mind now.  I am on this ride.  The seat belt is locked.  No turning back now.  Oh……my gosh….”  Then before you know it its over and you are exhilarated and maybe slightly nauseated!  I am super excited but scared and nervous at the same time.  I know people buy and sell houses everyday but I don’t.  It’s true what they say about it being a nerve wracking experience.

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So that’s that!  Keep us in your prayers!  There is a house I already have my eye on that I check obsessively every hour to see if it’s gone under contract would really love a chance at!