Relatively Speaking

You know how when you go without something you appreciate it that much more when you get it back?  Going without sleep for so long when the boys were babies makes me appreciate it so much more now.  I appreciate my husband being home at night because he worked nights for so long.  I appreciate the abundance of healthy food that I have because I ate so poorly for so long.  I appreciate the health of my children after they have been ill.  I appreciate a shower that stays warm all the way til the end when the weather warms back up.  And now, I appreciate the complete peace and serenity I feel now that the hard part of selling/buying a house is behind us.  Actually packing and moving is going to be a cake walk, relatively speaking.  I am looking forward to having a “normal” life again.  No interruptions.  No making sure the house is spotless before I get on with the rest of my day.  No more having to be out of the house for hours at a time when all I want to do is sleep and watch T.V.  No more wondering if today’s appointment will be THE ONE.  Having to read on a daily basis why someone doesn’t like your home. No more circling the neighborhood when an appointment is going over their time, having to pee so bad you are willing to pull over and squat.  Did I just say that?  Yes I did.  I never ever ever could have imagined how difficult and stressful this process would be.  You know when you go to visit a new doctor and they have you fill out that form asking if you have experienced any of the following in the last year?

  • Divorce
  • Death in the family
  • Loss of Job
  • Serious Illness
  • a MOVE

Yeah, I get that now.

It’s a miracle and by the grace of GOD that Jeremy and I are still married.  No I am kidding, but seriously…..it IS by grace that Jeremy didn’t leave me!  On the contrary, we are closer than ever so I wouldn’t trade the last 4 months for anything in the world.

Good news first…..we got the house we wanted.  Praise God.  But not without a fight.

The house we wanted had been on the market for 280 days…..nothing wrong with it at all just priced a little high, market slow…..honestly, I believe it was saved for us.  After seeing it again last week and loving it, I said “We need to put an offer on this place immediately, like this minute…”  I knew it, I could feel it….someone else was going to offer soon…possibly even that moment.  Mike reassured us that there was no other offer on it but I just knew….. Our offer was low but we weren’t asking for closing costs and accepting it in “as is” condition.  There were a few minor things that need to be addressed, light bulbs out, nail pops exposed etc.. …..nothing we haven’t fixed on our current home. I felt comfortable with our offer.  We had some issues getting our paper work emailed back to Mike so he was going to come by our house late that evening after work to pick it up.  It was 7:30 pm, I was feeling down right anxious because I knew we needed to get that offer in ASAP.  Sure enough, sometimes I swear I am psychic, Mike calls.  “There is another offer.”  My heart sank and my stomach churned.  I may have teared up a little. There goes the sweet slumber I was hoping for.  Thankfully because we knew about the other offer and hadn’t turned ours in yet…..we had the upper hand in the matter and were able to change our offer last minute to a more competitive one.  Ultimately, we won the house!  HIGH FIVES ALL AROUND!  We are set to close March 11 and will be moving out the next few days after that!  What a great way to spend Spring Break!

The very last stress inducing event was our buyer’s inspection on Friday morning.  I started out the morning with a clogged potty.  Then the milk for my oats boiled over and burned in the stove. We opened up the back door to let the smoke air out and Rya the cat escaped.  On her little adventure outside she ate some grass which induced vomiting…..of course not on the tile but the carpet.  I said out loud with a smile and in a very friendly manner to who or whatever was causing the issues.….”Nothing can shut what the Father has oooooopeeeened!  Just so ya know!”  That fixed that.  I felt good leaving the house that day. Confident that no issue would arise.  We haven’t heard anything back about the inspection and Mike said when there is a problem, they address it immediately.  No news is good news.  We have the inspection on the new house Wednesday morning and  I am confident that will go smoothly as well.

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Aidan turned 6 on Saturday.

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We had a very low key event.  There is no denying that he is my child.  I asked him a month ago if he wanted to have a “Pump It Up” party and invite all his classmates and friends.  His response?

“Ooooooh noooooo way.  It’s too loud in there and the kids get super duper crazy. I just want you and me and Daddy and Luke and Rya and Early and Trixie at our house where its peaceful and quiet.”

What?  I didn’t think I could love this child anymore than I already did.

On Friday morning I asked him what kind of cake he wanted for his birthday.  His response?

“I don’t want a cake, I don’t want a party, I just want white donuts.”

Wow…..

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He does love him some chocolate chip cookies so I made him a giant one, and yes, I did pile a bunch of white donuts on the birthday platter and served it to him for breakfast.

I am so happy right now.  I can’t even explain it.  I am just over the moon.  I feel so light and full of excitement.  I can’t wait to start packing.  I can’t wait to start making our new house our own.  I am so happy to be thinking happy thoughts again instead of “Good God, when will this ever end?  Are you even there?  Have you forgotten us?”  Or worse trying not to think at all.

This week I will be getting back to my P90X.  I had to put it on hold while we dealt with life last week.  Each day I set aside the time for it and it just never got done.  I really tried to follow the diet at least but even threw that out the window this weekend.  It was too much.  But…..I am getting right back on that horse and galloping my way to being bikini ready!

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Joshua

I am happy to say this day is over and a new one will begin tomorrow.  I am proud to say I made it through with grace and no binge eating peanut M&M’s or Honey Bunches of Oats. Thumbs up

It started out really great.  I got up bright and early with no problems.  I got myself ready for church & had breakfast.

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  • 1 1/2 cups unsweetened almond milk
  • 2 scoops EAS Lean 15 Protein powder in Vanilla Crème
  • 1 cup Dole frozen Strawberries & Bananas
  • 1 tablespoon chia seed.

What a yummy smoothie!  I prefer mixed berries but I am out Thumbs down.  It was super thick for some reason so I added 1/2 cup more almond milk.

Then……..the boys got up.  You know, sometimes they are just sweet as sweet can be.  But then other times, well, they just aren’t.  This morning was one of those times.  We made it out the door with just barely enough time to get to church for the early service.  Since I wasn’t scheduled to volunteer in the nursery this morning, my plan was to stop in to see if they needed any help (of course they would) for either the first or the last service.  That plan was about to get the ax.

We all got in the car and then I saw the gas light.  I had forgotten that I needed to get gas.  I thought I would be getting out of the house again on Saturday afternoon but we never did so therefore I completely forgot.  Already late, I knew I had to stop for at least a little.  The last thing I needed was to be stranded on the side of the freeway.  As I was pulling into the gas station my children start screaming….”SPIDER!!!!  SPIDER!”  I never saw the spider, but for those bug hunting, bug killing boys to have been screaming like that, it must have been some spider.

I got out of the car, in heels, with the wind blowing my dress and hair every which way.  I am not sure I have ever mentioned how much I HATE to pump gas.  I hate it.  I hate touching the nozzle, I hate touching the pin pad, it gives me anxiety because I feel like someone is going to come up to me, I hate the way it smells.  I just hate it.  I did all the necessary steps, then took the nozzle off the pump and gas starts spewing out all over the concrete, all over my shoes, my dress.  I am just standing there, holding it as far away from myself as possible, completely paralyzed as to what to do.  After what seemed an eternity, it finally stopped.  I glanced up at the price screen thing and it had spewed out $1.68 worth of gas!  BLERGH……. I realized that this was a little battle, but I was going to win.  I took some deep breaths, said some prayers and calmly drove back home.  I would go home, change my clothes, wash my legs.  I would do the dishes, sweep the floor, and then I would leave a few minutes early for my class that started at 10am.  I.Was.GOING.To.Church.

Outfit #2

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Dress: Macy’s  (I bought this dress in 2009 for a wedding.  It was the only one I felt remotely comfortable in out of the 40 dresses I tried on for this wedding.)

Shoes: Ross

Bracelets:  Coach and a gift from a friend.

Watch:Fossil

I also had on silver hoops.

Would ya’ll like a little before and after?

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October 2009                                      April 2012

Well, I made it to church, on time for class.  I had extra time to spare in between the class and the service.  I had some coffee and talked with some of the ladies that were in the class with me.  I felt complete peace.

While I was waiting for service to start I glanced at the handout they give us.  It said today’s message was over Joshua 1.  So I opened up to that scripture.

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Over the years this has been highlighted and re-highlighted, underlined and circled.  I don’t have the words to say how overwhelmed with love and peace I was in that moment.

It’s no secret that life is hard.  My life is hard, your life is hard.  But we aren’t alone in the battle.  The battle over the big stuff. The battle over the little annoying things like gas spewing all over your pretty shoes and kids screaming in the back seat because there is prehistoric spider back there.  The little stuff like boys fighting over who’s Lego part is who’s and purposefully seeking out to drive their loving and devoted mother to the psych hospital or to “See the Wizard” as it’s lovingly referred to in some lines of work.  Winking smile

I felt 100% refreshed after service and drove straight home.  Not stopping for donuts this week because,  A) we all know what that leads to….and B) because my children were acting like heathens and deserved no such treat.  They were even going to have to spend an hour in their rooms after church this afternoon, but I felt compelled to extend a touch of grace to them so I took back that punishment.  I had a banana and a Clif Kid Z-Bar in my bag and ate those on the way home.

Then when I got home I made lunch for the boys and myself.  I munched on some of their Goldfish Crackers while my soup was heating on the stove.

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Wolfgang Puck Chicken Noodle Soup.

It was super yummy, a great healthy comfort food and most importantly not a box of Honey Bunches of Oats.

I had some protein bread with a tablespoon of PB also.

My kids did this for a while.

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I did various things around the house and also napped (I had been up since 5am people!)  for about an hour.

Later we went out to get some drinks and I got this too.

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Sometimes you just need a little sweetness in your life to make it through the day.  I am proud of myself for not getting the king sized bag of M&M’s that were staring me down.  No, I got the 150 calorie treat.  YAY ME!

I wasn’t hungry for dinner but this is what I made.

Garlic Chicken with Rice

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The boys LOVED it!  I tasted it and thought it was pretty good.  It was super easy, quick, and inexpensive. I did all the prep for it Saturday night and put it together when I got home from church.  I was going to have it ready for lunch but the chicken wasn’t thawed enough this morning.  I used 4 boneless chicken breasts instead of the bone-in chicken it calls for.  If I’d known they would love it so much,  I would have used more chicken. For leftovers I should have used 6-7 breasts.  There is a lot of rice left over so I can use that for another meal.

I am off to end this day right.  Hopefully I can get more than a few pages read in Catching Fire before my eyes seal shut.

A Day to Remember

April 18th 2012 will be a day my little family will always remember.  It was a glorious and beautiful Spring day.

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I got my 5 mile run in and stopped to smell the roses bluebonnets along the way.  Then I did the Tone it Up Girls Lean Arms Pyramid and a long stretching session.

Tone It Up

My breakfast, snack and lunch were the exact same as Tuesday.  I’ll spare the documentation….ya seen one bowl of oatmeal, apple, orange, protein bar, and smoothie, ya seen ‘em all!

I received two coupons for a free Zone Perfect Bar in the mail so I picked them up while grocery shopping yesterday.  My smoothie kept me satiated for quite a while but I was getting hungry again.   I knew I wasn’t going to be able to eat dinner until well after 7:30 maybe even 8pm.  This little bar was perfect.  I ate it on the way home from the store, around 4:45, and I was surprised that it held me over all the way until I was able to eat dinner.  It was really tasty.  It really tasted like a candy bar to me, except not addictively sweet and hyper-palatable.  The Zone Diet works by having you eat a balance of carbs-fat-protein so that you decrease cellular inflammation, which it says is why we are fat.  It claims that by eating this “perfect” equation you will not get hungry for hours.   While I don’t endorse the diet by any means, I do endorse these little bars!  Yummmmm.  The bars claim to have the perfect carbs-fat-protein ratio making it the perfect “Zone” mini-meal.   It WAS the perfect mini-meal!    It kept my hunger at bay for several hours.  This would not be the case if I had chosen a Larabar or a Luna Bar.  I would have been ravenous within two hours.  photo 1 (3)

Zone Perfect Chocolate Caramel Cluster

We were off to church pretty much as soon as I got home and got the groceries put away.  It was a big night.

There are moments in my life that I will remember forever. I will always have a vivid image of those moments. The moment I felt the warmth of my first son born after he was delivered.  The first moment I laid eyes on the 19 year old kid I’d spend the rest of my life with, hanging up cell phone accessories in Circuit City.  The moment in the Bellagio Chapel when he promised me he would never leave me, for better or for worse. The hard moments. The moment Jeremy sat at the edge of our bed and told me his brother had been killed.  The moment I watched my 2 week old baby boy being wheeled through the double doors of the hospital for surgery.

And this moment

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On April 18th 2012 my son Luke accepted Jesus into his heart and was baptized in the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit.

The story on how this came to be can only be described as a total God thing.  There are times in our lives when we just rely on pure faith that the Lord is working for our good.  You don’t always feel it, it’s not always tangible, it’s not always this ooey gooey feeling of peace and love and joy.  Most of the time it’s like “Um, hello???? God, are you even there?  Can’t you see I need a little help?”  But then…..there are moments when He reveals Himself in such a magnificent way, you can’t believe you ever doubted his presence.  Times when He works in your life specifically to strengthen your faith.

He knows my name

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Times you are reminded that He is sovereign.


We stopped by our favorite, Chick-Fil-A, for dinner and I got something I have never tried before.

The Chargrilled & Fruit Salad

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This was SO yummy!  I am pretty sure this will be my new usual.  I used the Berry Vinaigrette, and it was good, but next time I will get the fat free honey mustard I normally have.

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I ate all the yummy stuff off and left the nutritious stuff like a 5 yr. old. What? I was full!


Today is DATE DAY!   I We have a few things planned.  Starbucks. The Container Store, for those items I can’t stop thinking about.  Lifeway & B&N for a baptism gift for Luke.  Lunch, not sure where & of course, Pinkberry.  Maybe I will be able to dragggggggg Jeremy into Ulta for some Mother’s Day help and to pick up a free gift with the coupon they sent me because I spent too much money a certain dollar amount in there over the last few months.

“There is no such thing as natural beauty” – Truvy

Steel Magnolias

Betcha couldn’t have guessed this is my favorite movie of ALL TIME.  I have watched it hundreds if not thousands of times (<—— Blatant lie) and will never ever tire of it.  It’s the only movie I can quote word for word and also use the dialogue from pretty much daily……However, I either turn it off or fast forward right before Shelby collapses on the back porch.  I just can’t take it.  I will sob every.single.time.

Questions of the day:

What moments (good or bad) are ingrained in your life?

What movie can you quote line for line?

Sing Soft Kitty

I got up extra early Sunday morning so that I could get a workout in before I had a chance to talk myself out of it.  I am so glad I did because by the time we finally made it home from church it was almost 2pm and all I wanted to do was take a nap.  There is something about napping on a Sunday that feels so right.

After my coffee had a chance to do its job I did 30 Day Shred Level 2, and then got ready for church.

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Shirt: Target

Pants: Candies – they are pink if you can’t tell

Accessories: Charming Charlie

Shoes: ??? Target?

Watch: Fossil

 I ate a quick breakfast

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Dannon Greek yogurt in blueberry, 1 tbsp. chia seeds, 2 tbsp. homemade granola, raw almonds.

Then we were off to church!  During the class I went to, the man who was teaching told his testimony about how he had ripped God out of his life after one of his twin sons died at 3 weeks.  It was heart wrenching.  I did not expect to need a tissue during my class.  I usually do during service, but never in a class!  Confused smile He went on to speak about how his wife continued to go each Sunday, never once questioning him or asking him to go with her.  Then after 20 years of not speaking a word to God, he decided to go to church.  It was then through serving in the church that God began to heal his heart of stone.  He has been teaching several classes in our church for 10 years now.  His story made me think about Daniel.  How after we lost him, I questioned Him for so long.  Through continuing to have blind faith that God is for me, I have grown so much spiritually and have a sense of the bigger picture.

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. “ –Romans 8-28

That little sentence got me through some tough, tough moments.

If Sheldon had been in my life 3 years ago, this may have helped too

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Surprisingly, my breakfast held me over until I was driving home and then out of nowhere….HANGRY.  Thankfully I was prepared with this,

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Clif Kid Z-Bar in S’mores – my favorite Z-Bar so far.

While I was getting Aidan’s lunch ready I snacked on these,

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But the peach wasn’t ripe enough, so after a few bites I wrapped it up and put it back into the fridge.

I replaced it with this

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Lunch

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Strawberries, blueberries, baby carrots, Turkey and Colby Jack Panini on an Orowheat SandwichThin.

After lunch I also had two of the Larabar Bites.  Those are dangerous to have hanging around.

I then proceeded to collapse on the couch for a whole hour before my alarm went off letting me know it was time to wake up for soccer practice.  Thankfully it wasn’t raining but instead, it was windy.  I don’t mean regular wind either.  This was the craziest wind I have ever been in.  It was like we were in a hurricane.  Every time the boys would kick the ball, it would go soaring across the field.  I suppose it was good for their little egos!

Dinner

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I couldn’t go one day with out one could I?

After dinner I nibbled on the last of my ginormous Larabar.  I had been taking little bites of it throughout the day and then put it out of it’s misery for dessert.  Also not good to have laying around.

Luke will be back home today after being at his dad’s for Spring Break!  We can’t wait to see him!  It’s not the same when he is away.  Poor Aidan even said yesterday, “I wish Luke would come home, it’s so lonely here without him.”  Sad smile There is always a period of constant bickering and fighting adjustment when he comes back, so I am praying for an extra measure of grace for this afternoon!

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Fridays are Mondays around here

I slept an extra hour (until 6am) this morning expecting it to be a slow day with plenty of time to get everything done. Wrong. When am I ever going to learn that in order to keep up with these boys, I have to get a good two hour head start?  Probably never.

I had my coffee and my usual breakfast.  Did the morning chores.  I don’t know if it’s just me but I go to bed with a clean house and by 8am it’s a disaster again.  I spend a good hour doing my “chores” in the morning and usually an hour in the afternoon just tidying up.  I have found that if I do a little each day, keeping everything clean on a daily basis, I don’t have to spend a WHOLE day on it.  Plus it keeps me sane.  I think God blessed me with slight OCD because He knew I was going to be living with three boys!  Sometimes I am not sure if I am teaching them to be civilized gentlemen or if it’s going to backfire and they will live like hobos when they leave the nest.  Lord, I PRAY for their future wives!

My workout was all cardio today.  I did 30 min on the treadmill and 30 on the elliptical followed by a good stretch out.  I was super sore from my leg workout on Wednesday and Jillian never fails to make me sore in places I forgot I had.  It was nice to just zone out.  I have been feeling a little stressed out lately with my schedule being all bonked, so a long cardio session was just what I needed.

I went to the gym feeling hungry again, so I was sure to bring a post workout snack since I had a quick errand to run afterwards.  That Larabar didn’t know what hit it!  I demolished it before I thought to take a picture!

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I am so glad I brought it because that quick errand turned into an hour errand, plus an aggravating phone call and I didn’t get to eat lunch until almost 2pm. I was Hangry.

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Turkey & Swiss Panini, 1/2 an apple, baby carrots.

I finally got to shower and then do round two of chores.  I wanted a NAP! But thank goodness for this life saver –

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Spark Energy Drink

I got a second wind just in time for Luke to be home from school, let the bickering ensue…..they had to be separated today.  But  Daddy got home early from his part-time gig so I had some back up!

I had a snack

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Luke left for his dad’s house for the weekend, and we ran to Academy for some soccer gear.  Surprise!  First practice is Saturday ( re: aggravating phone call ).

We picked up a Pizza for the boys and I made my own healthy version

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Whole Wheat Pita, Pizza Sauce, Morningstar Breakfast Sausage, Fat Free Mozzarella Cheese

To say the least I am worn out.  My “relaxing catch up” day was full of unexpected challenges.  Grace was in full effect today.