The Bully serves the Bullied

On one hand, given my past, it is making me very uncomfortable to have my appetite absolutely out of control the past few days. On the other hand, I know I need to put back on a few of the pounds I have lost over the last several weeks.  The rational side of me knows that my body is like “Ummmm hello?  Can we please eat now?”  But the former fat girl in me is completely freaking out.

Yesterday I felt like my appetite was returning back to normal.  Interested in food again but not constantly hungry.  That was until about 3:30.  At first I had a little snack

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Then a little bigger snack.

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This time I measured everything out so I wouldn’t over snack again and ruin dinner.

After this snack failed to satisfy me, I gave up.  On the bright side, the tortilla chips and hummus are gone and I wasn’t hungry anymore!  Annoyed

This morning I feel like my appetite is a little more normal.  I struggled to finish my oats,

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but I knew I needed to finish them so I wouldn’t be hungry an hour later.  I also wanted to be sure to get a good breakfast in because I am going to get out and enjoy this beautiful sunshine and “warmth” (only 40 degrees!) on a run.  I am planning on trying to increase my distance a little.  My legs and tush are super sore from Shred-It yesterday, so I am going to say it was a good workout, just light on the cardio.

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I have to share something that has been a such a huge help in our home recently.  As a mother of boys I have no shortage of carnage around here and apparently this is not uncommon.  I have found a site that has been such a source of comfort and encouragement for me. It has made me see that I am not alone in this work of raising boys.

The MOB Society

As a woman, I struggle to understand boys.  I don’t get the loud noises, the rough play, the fascination with Legos and video games.  The aversion to good personal hygiene.  The expression of affection by passing gas on each other, hitting & wrestling.  I can nurture them like a beast but when it comes to really understanding them…..not so much.  I feel so blessed to have two amazing boys who are really really wonderful.  They are smart, healthy and don’t have any behavior issues what-so-ever.

I refuse to accept the notion that “boys will be boys”.  No, I am raising my boys to be gentlemen, respectful men of God, ones who open doors and pay for dinner, ones who bring flowers for no reason, ones who are chivalrous, have manners, ones who will respect women and love them for the amazing creatures they are, ones who respect others, are kind and gentle in their ways, ones who put other’s needs before their own.

One of the issues we have is that the older brother likes to bully the younger brother.  It has been going on for what seems like forever & I have zero tolerance for it.  I can not stand rude & condescending comments.  Even though Aidan is just 5, I do not want him growing up feeling “less than”.  As parents we use our words to build up our children.  They get so much negativity thrown at them from the world.  We have the responsibility to do damage control and make sure they know how important they are regardless of what the world says.  So, I don’t need additional help from within! We have tried talking, reasoning, punishing, guilt,  none of it has worked.  It all came to a boiling point this last weekend.

Two weeks ago Aidan got a donut he didn’t like and threw it away.  Luke saved his so that he could have it for breakfast the next morning.  While Luke was eating his donut, he was adamant about being sure Aidan knew how much he was enjoying it.

“Hey Aidan, look, I’m eating my donut.”

Aidan really didn’t care.

“Mmmmmm this donut sure is good! Aidan…..MY donut is good!”

That pushed the “Crazy Mommy Button”.  After a looooooong lecture I had a brilliant idea!

“Luke, because of that rude behavior, you now get to SHARE your delicious donut with your little brother.”

Needless to say someone was not happy. <—–understatement.

I explained that a nice person would have had this thought pattern.

“I feel sad that Aidan got a crummy donut yesterday, I think I will share mine.”

The Bully Serves the Bullied

Last week I saw on the MOB Facebook page that bullying among brothers is not uncommon.  The way a lot of mothers handle it is by implementing a rule called “The Bully Serves the Bullied.”

Knowing how well the donut situation worked, I decided to try it in other areas.

Last Sunday Luke made fun of Aidan over a mistake he made on a video game that caused him to set his house on fire.

“You SET your house on FIRE!!! HAHAHAHAHA”

The next thing I knew Aidan was on top of Luke punching him, screaming and in tears!

I am laughing hysterically about it now but it was quite alarming to see my sweet and gentle Aidan completely flipping out!  Jeremy was having to hold him back from beating the mess out of Luke.  Aidan didn’t get in trouble because as I told Luke,

“It serves you right.  What do you expect from him?  You push him and push him and push him…..it was inevitable that one day he would push back.”

Now don’t get me wrong, we did talk to Aidan about hitting and controlling our anger but seriously…..the kid puts up with a lot….A LOT  from his older brother.

So…..since the “incident” Luke has had to tickle Aidan’s back twice, read him a book and pick out his clothes.  It has been difficult to get Luke to take it seriously and I have even had to take his iTouch away but I am seeing how it is going to make a difference.  He is learning and being humbled a little more each time he has been rude or disrespectful.   I am loving this new form of “discipline”.  Everyone wins!   Maybe one day he will quit picking on his baby brother all together.   One can only hope.

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ALL women are real

Pardon me while I get something out of my system….

I am not by any means someone who takes offense to things, most things roll off my back…..<— not something that always came easy.  I feel the “politically correct” thing is completely overrated and taken way too far in many cases.  Now, there are some very legitimate things that should never be said.  Personally I am offended by excessive and unnecessary cursing but the truth is people are going to say things that are offensive, so don’t get your panties in a wad.  Take care in things you say, but, you can’t please every one all the time.

I wouldn’t say I am necessarily offended by this, however; it does get under my skin.

I am so tired of seeing “REAL WOMEN” _________.  Have curves, eat meat, watch football, hunt, are strong, are educated, lift weights, eat, and the list goes on and on……I know it’s done in fun most of the time.  But when I see stuff like that I just think about the women who have had breast cancer and have had their breasts removed, women who are undergoing chemotherapy and are thin as rails, women who are not strong because of some past hurt that they are dealing with, those women who never had a chance to go to college.  Some women have eating disorders, some women don’t have huge appetites.  The last time I checked I am very much a women and I couldn’t care less about football.  I didn’t eat meat for two years.  I am not a fan of lifting weights.  I would rather cut my finger off than camp or hunt or fish….ok that’s an exaggeration but you get my point.

ALL WOMEN ARE REAL.  Period.

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ok…..the end.

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My appetite seems to be back under control this morning!

I made a bowl of oats, obviously my favorite cold weather breakfast!

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This one was oats, almond milk, chia seeds, cinnamon, Ideal, 1/2 a small banana and 1 tbsp. peanut butter.  I ate the other half of the banana while it was cooling.

Well, I am off to get the daily disaster cleaned up.  The weather is snowy, wet, cold and just plain yuk…..I feel like Jillian and are going to have to have a date!

Just Put On Your Shoes & Go

I was a bottomless pit this morning!  I started out eating a couple handfuls of almonds while making the boys’ lunches.  I didn’t have time to make and eat my oatmeal before I had to get them to school so I thought I would eat those to tie me over.

When I got back I didn’t even take my shoes or coat off before making a bee-line for the kitchen to prep my oats.

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My usual oats with almond butter, Ideal brown sugar blend, chia seeds & cinnamon.  Even all that wasn’t enough.  I had more almonds and then about an hour later I had one of my homemade Larabars.  Finally, I was full and didn’t get hungry again until after 1 pm. I had planned on making a green smoothie for lunch but……

I had just gotten out of the shower and was about to dry my hair when I got a call for a showing at 2pm.  I almost declined it but knew I had plenty of time so I finished drying my hair, picked up the house quickly and drove down the street. Come to find out,  it was a second showing from one we had back in November.  I knew the agent’s  name was familiar.  Glad I didn’t decline!  Thankfully they were right on time and I was able to go back home at 2:15.

This evening we found ourselves in the car again waiting out two back to back showings.  I am not sure when this happened but I feel like I have finally let it go.  Really let it go.  This whole routine we do, getting the house ready, driving down the street, waiting it out, feels very, well, routine.  We’ve been doing it for so long that it’s just a part of our life now.  Almost like our home is some sort of local attraction.  I suppose it’s my mind’s way of coping.

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This morning after my feast had settled I decided it was time for my run.  I checked the weather and saw this……

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Oh dear…..that’s cold.

I stalled and stalled.  I tried to weasel out of it by telling myself I’d go when Jeremy got home.  I folded some laundry.  I kept thinking I would do a video but running is so much better for my headspace.

The annoying little voice in my head kept saying,

“Just put on your shoes and go.”

Over and Over.

So I did.  I also put on a head warmer, gloves and a jacket.  You know what?  It wasn’t all that bad!

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And I felt so much better after.

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I didn’t get to eat until after the boys got home and by then I was ravenous again so I snacked and snacked while I was making this for dinner…..

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Easy Parmesan Chicken

I over snacked on chips, salsa & hummus again…..so I wasn’t hungry by the time it was ready Thumbs down The boys loved it though!  Maybe I will have it tomorrow for lunch!

Tomorrow my goal is not only to eat better, but to eat something GREEN!

Darkest before the dawn

I had planned on doing another Dr. Oz 3 day detox cleanse after Christmas because it made me feel so great when I was done and I wanted to get the new year started right.  Well, then we got visited by the stomach bug and even though I didn’t get it, I was terrified I would and lost my appetite for a little over a week.  Not eating anything but crackers, bananas, and oatmeal for a week messed up my body.  When I got my appetite back all I wanted to eat, all that sounded good, were carbs and more carbs since that’s what I had been eating for a week.  Honestly, I allowed myself to eat whatever I was craving because, I had gotten down to 110lbs.  <—— not cute.  I haven’t been able to/wanted to work out since the boys have been home so that, coupled with the craptastic diet I have been eating has REALLY been affecting me.  I have been feeling a little edgy lately but I felt like I would start feeling better soon since things have been getting back to normal.  The boys will go back to school on Tuesday, we were supposed to be getting some good news yesterday <—– more on that later…everything was beginning to look bright again.

Then…..

Today in the middle of church I had a panic attack.  I had to get up and leave.  If you have ever had a panic attack you know the feeling of fight or flight.  I felt like I was in some sort of danger and needed to run for my life!   It’s really to most ODD sensation.  I hate it.  I was supposed to volunteer in Aidan’s class this morning but I had to get out of there.  It wasn’t until I got home that I started to calm down and realize what had just happened.  It hadn’t happened in so long, I forgot what it was.

That was a wake up call for me.  I have to get back on track with my normal healthy eating and exercise.  It is essentially vital for me.  If I want to finish this race, this time of trial and patience, I have to, have to, have to be on my A- Game.  The devil is prowling, just waiting for a weak moment to attack me.  This morning was one of them.  It had been a stressful morning as usual on top of everything else…….So…..I am doing the Dr. Oz 3 day cleanse again Mon/Tue/Wed to help get me back on track.

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Today’s panic attack was no doubt also a product of the two anxiety ridden days before.

Friday we got word that a buyer was “VERY INTERESTED” in our house and had asked for a seller’s disclosure.  The statement from the buyer’s agent was “The earliest we can expect a write up would be Saturday.”  SAY WHAT?!?!  Praise God….Halleluiah!  On Saturday we had two showings.  One was a new person who came 15 min early. Thankfully was had JUST left and were driving down the street to see them drive up to the house, get out of the car, walk up to the door, walk back to the car and leave.  ????? Confused smile  Who knows…Well anyway, the second showing right after that was with the buyers who were “very interested”.  Ok, first of all, I was disappointed that instead of an offer from them, we had a second showing.  We never heard anything from them that day and we STILL have yet to hear anything.  Just the constant expectation that at any moment now,  we could have all of our prayers answered is incredibly nerve wracking…..<—understatement.

Meanwhile…..our “could be dream home” is sitting out there, free game, and I just feel like at any moment now I will get a notification…..PENDING.  I seriously need a valium right now.  But you know what?  Deep….WAY WAAAAAAY down deep, I know everything will work out perfectly and that takes the edge off, a little…..

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Even though today was no bueno, SATURDAY was quite lovely….minus being on the edge of insanity waiting for the good news we were teased with.

I went to Target (happy place) to let the boys pick out some toys with their Christmas gift cards.  I found a GREAT deal on some Starbucks coffee! It was the Christmas blend for 70% off!  Holla!

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I started the day off on the right note with some oatmeal, my vitamins and a big cup of water.

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Before we left I had a quick lunch because I was running out of time before our first showing.

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The banana was good but the bar…..not so much.  “Gross” pretty much would describe it.  I didn’t take a look at the list of chemicals on the back when I bought it…..so that was unpleasant to see AFTER I had choked it down…..”Man that was not good at all…” Turns over the wrapper…..sees list of 50 impossible to pronounce words….files it under “What was I thinking?”

When I got home that afternoon I was ravenous & I ate some almonds, some turkey, a cheese stick, some Fritos with hummus, after that I lost track…..by the end of the night I had a stomach ache from all the leftover Christmas candy I ate out of sheer stress and anxiety…..Not proud of that one bit….but….it is what it is.  Hence the detox starting tomorrow….

We are ending the day with Aidan running a 102 fever…..I am ready for this to be over, on the real!!….

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Not Happ’nin…..

Today I wanted to try out my “new” – as in I bought it about 3 months ago and haven’t opened it until today – workout video.

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Jillian’s Yoga Meltdown

I did Level 2 of 30 day Shred and then popped my “yoga” video in.  I should have known this wasn’t your normal yoga video.  I lasted  5 minutes before realizing this was yoga on steroids.  After doing Level 2 of Shred, this one was not happ’nin today!  Instead I looked for a yoga video on AT&T’s On Demand.  I didn’t find yoga but I did find a lame 20 min stretch video.  I did that for 10 min and then decided to do some of my own yoga stretches.  Annoyed

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The mystery of the Sunday afternoon no-show has been solved.  This time the excuse seems legit.  We got a message today saying they ran out of time and the kids ran out of energy so they will try to show the house on Saturday. Awesome!  We also got some good feedback about one of the showings on Saturday,  “House showed well. Clients liked the layout and space.”  That made me laugh because the other showing from that day said “House showed beautifully, like a model.  Clients didn’t like the layout or how the house was open from front to back.”  Geez Louise!   Last night I may or may not have had an emotional breakdown over this whole process after yet another one of our favorite houses went under contract.  One of our other favorites went under contract earlier this week.  But today I am feeling much better and still standing strong in believing our time will come soon.  Isn’t that funny how a good cry can make everything just seem better?

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I was super hungry this morning.  I started out with a good bowl of oatmeal.

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Today I added half a banana on top hoping it would last a little longer than yesterday.

I really need to get some more eggs for the morning because I was hungry two hours after this.

Snack #1 at 10am was an apple and a handful of almonds

Snack #2 at 11:30 am was 2 oz. of turkey and a low fat cheese stick.

I was good after that for a while.  I watched Dr.Oz, folded some laundry, talked to my friend and then did my workout.  I got hungry again around 3 but had to go get Aidan so I ate when I got home.

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I had some leftovers from dinner last night.

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Which was a spoonful of brown rice, Green Giant Tuscan Seasoned broccoli and some chicken apple sausage.

I also had an apple and another handful of almonds.  Hungry girl today!

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Today in Luke’s folder was a letter from the school nurse.

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This makes me so sad.  While I am glad that the school is being pro-active, just the fact that they are testing elementary children for Type 2 diabetes is heart-breaking.  When is the world going to wake up and stop accepting obesity (even just being “over-weight”) as a normal thing?  I wish there was more that I could do, but for now I must continue to be the change I would like to see in the world.

7 Stiches

The good thing about having 7 stiches on my hip is that I get to catch up on all my DVR’d shows, all the latest and greatest Pins, and all the health articles I have book-marked to read when I have time <—-(Never)Thumbs upOpen-mouthed smile The bad thing is, well, it hurts and I can’t really move around much. Thumbs downSad smile

But it’s gone and I am so thankful.  I get to go back in two weeks to have the stiches removed and then two weeks later so she can biopsy another spot that looks suspect.  I may or may not have held back a few tears.

If you live in the Arlington/Mansfield/Forth Worth area, Mansfield Dermatology is the place to go! Obviously, I highly recommend going in for a full body skin check!

So enough of that depressing stuff…..lets focus on the good!  TODAY is the “exciting news” meeting!  I can’t wait.

I also made two yummy things this week.  Unfortunately, my attempt at an “Aidan friendly” menu didn’t go over very well.

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I don’t know what his deal is.

For the Frito Pie I really wanted to make homemade chili in a crock pot but I just didn’t have that kind of time this week.  So I just used canned chili.  We all (minus Aidan of course) loved the Frito Pie but it would be so much yummier and healthier with homemade chili.

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I recreated my favorite meal right now. The Sweet Crisp Spinach Salad with Tomato Soup from Corner Bakery.  I have been eating this pretty much everyday!  Yesterday after my appointment, Jeremy picked up the real thing for me from the restaurant and I must say I think I did a good job of copy catting it!  I couldn’t find pomegranate vinaigrette so I used raspberry instead.  I really didn’t notice a difference.   I also added some honey roasted peanuts just because I thought it would be yummy.  The soup I made wasn’t good.  I won’t even talk about it…..Annoyed

One of Luke’s favorite things to eat before Mommy went all health crazy was Bagel Bites.

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I had a coupon for $1 off Bagel Bites and thought, hmmmm, well, they can’t be THAT bad for you.  Yeah….they are that bad (what’s in them anyway?) and WAY over priced.  So I thought I might be able to easily recreate them!  They aren’t perfectly clean but better than the frozen kind and they taste better too.  Luke helped me make them and thought we had made the best meal ever.  I forgot the veggies on the side but I don’t think anyone but me missed them!

Do you think Aidan liked these?

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Surely he would….one of the few things he eats voluntarily is Little Caesar’s Pizza.

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“These are yucky.”

Brat.

Amanda’s Pizza Bagels

100 calories per pizza

Bake at 350 degrees for 10-12 minutes.

I split Mini Bagels (120 calories each) in half and topped them with 1 tablespoon pizza sauce, 1 tablespoon Italian Cheese Blend and 2 turkey pepperonis (quartered).

They were so delicious!!!

Yesterday afternoon I heard some beautiful music coming from somewhere in the house.  At first I thought it was a commercial or something.  It went on and on and then I thought wait….is Luke using his bow?  He’s only been plucking the strings and working on learning the parts of it so far.  I slowly got up and hobbled into the living room. I saw my sweet boy in the dining room doing this.

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I know my nerves are shot right now but I may have gotten a little pheklempt!

He also brought his “graded papers” folder home yesterday.  There were 10 papers in the folder.  The top one was an 86 that his math teacher wrote a note on.  “We went over this in class?”  Which I found funny because I could just see her doing the same thing I do.  “Luke what is this?  You can do better than this.  I expect more from you.”   All the others were a perfect 100.  I may or may not have teared up a little then too.

As a parent, you do so much correcting and disciplining.  You feel like a big ol’ rotten meanie britches most of the time. You just want the best for your kids. Hearing him play the violin and seeing those 100’s was one of those rare & precious little gifts that comes along just when you need it most.   Little moments like these warm my heart like nothing else.  There is no better feeling in the world to me than seeing my boys do something they are proud of.

This and That….

I made a newish shake Monday night! It was delicious. These shakes are so perfect for nights when I am not really hungry but know I need something.

I call this one Chocolate Banana Protein Shake.  I’m so original.

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1/2 cup fat free cottage cheese

1 scoop MRM vanilla protein powder

1 tbsp. ground flax seed

1/2 frozen banana

1 1/2  tbsp. cocoa

cinnamon & Splenda (to taste)

1/2 – 1 cup water

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My breakfast Tuesday morning before (what seemed like) a marathon run.

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Nothing new or exciting….sandwich thin, PB, 1/2 a banana, cinnamon and my vitamins.

Have a lookie-loo at what happened Tuesday night!!!!

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Aidan ate, without any fussing or complaining, what I made for him! I had made another Skinny Chicken Spaghetti Casserole that afternoon and set aside some chicken for him. Then I made him frozen peas with salt, pepper and butter (which I guess he liked THAT day….no, that minute) and some quinoa cooked in chicken broth. He is asking for it again tonight so I am thankful for that!

Today was a much needed rest day.  I think with all the running I have been doing I have angered an old strain that haunts me every now and then.  I slept like poo-poo-ca-ca last night.  Every time I moved or tried to turn over, that strain said “Hey YOU! Still here!” I finally hobbled my way into the kitchen at 4 am for some Aleve.  After I had been up a while the pain finally started to subside and I was able to carry on with my plans for the rest of the day.

I had the Beth Moore Bible Study this morning and I decided it best to find the time for breakfast so I didn’t come home hangry again.  My new favorite recipe blog, Dashing Dish, posted a new protein shake called French Toast.  It sounded perfect this morning!

French Toast Protein Shake

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It was pretty good.  I think I put too much ice so it wasn’t blending well.  That made me have to add more water.  The result was a bit watered down.  I will go easy on the ice next time.  I can tell it would have tasted amazing without so much ice!

The study this morning was….life changing.  I can’t explain the feeling I have when I leave these studies.  I was once again… moved.  Even to tears a few times.  I felt as though she was speaking directly to me at points.

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When I got home I wasn’t super hungry, I had some fruit and a petite scone from the study.  What I was though, was sleeeeeeeepy.  I took a little cat-nap before it was time to leave for a doctor appointment.  One of the things I needed was to get a referral for a dermatologist.  As soon as I got home I called to make an appointment with the dermatologist and she was able to get me in tomorrow morning! I was so surprised but took it because I knew it might be a month before I could get in.

My eating has been so random today.  A Luna bar, almonds, protein bread, peanut butter, goldfish, a latte.  I am not sure what I will have for dinner.  I am not really in the mood or hungry for anything.  I am just tired.  I should just go to bed right now!

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This thought is random and semi out of place.  I was surprised to find myself a bit anxious about the weigh-in they do at the doctor’s office.  It doesn’t matter what you go in for, they want you to step on that ever lovin’ scale! Every.Single.Time.  Why was I anxious? I don’t know. Last year when I went, it was 5 lbs. off….and not in my favor.  I guess I was taken by surprise last time and this time I was worried that it would read something way different than what I am used to seeing. I mean, am I the only woman who takes of her jewelry, sweater, shoes, anything I can and still be appropriate, before getting on that horrible thing?  Is this psycho or what?  It just goes to show that when you reach your goal weight….some things don’t change.   Good news though….it read less than what I am used to seeing!

Wish me luck tomorrow at the dermatologist!  I wonder if they will want to weigh me…..Annoyed

What I love about….

Luke:

He makes little gems like this.

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Target:

They give away Starbucks K-Cups

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The Rain:

That rainbows follow it.

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I am SO grateful for my new BFF, my bodybugg.  I was incredibly hungry all day on Saturday.  Like every two hours hungry.  I knew it was coming at some point since last week seemed to be the one week out of the month that I am not ravenous.  I didn’t get the workout done on Saturday like I had planned so I didn’t have the extra calories to play with like I usually do. That’s where my new best friend came into play.  Since the Bodybugg measures calories burned, I was able to see how many calories I had burned at any given time and eat appropriately.  Without it….Saturday would have been a disaster.  Instead I remained in control the entire day.  I even ended up with a good size deficit and my hard work all week didn’t end up in the toilet.  Bodybugg fan for life!

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Saturday afternoon I made a recipe form the latest issue of Taste of Home’s Healthy Cooking magazine.

It’s Pizza Pasta!

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The guys ate it all weekend!  Minus Aidan…..that’s a blog post in itself…. He has become quite the picky eater and that is an understatement.  Frustration doesn’t even cover the feelings I have when I try to get him to eat.  I am forced to go against every belief I have when it comes to feeding my children…..I am becoming a short order cook and I hate that.  But the child is skin and bones and has lost weight he didn’t have to lose.  I have resorted to letting him eat peanut butter out of the jar because its fun for him…..and one of the only things he will eat voluntarily.  I am on the search for every tip, trick and recipe I can find for picky eaters, as well as encouragement that this too shall pass.

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I was sad to see the weekend go but was ready to get back to my beloved routine.

Breakfast:

Dannon Oikos Greek Yogurt, 14 almonds and cinnamon.

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I jogged for an hour in the park this morning.  It was lovely as usual!

My new favorite thing to have after a long workout is Vitamin Water.  It makes me feel so much better.

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I also had an apple and some almonds a little later after a long shower.

Lunch was so yummy today!

Orowheat Sandwich Thin with ham, guacamole, and provolone cheese pressed in my Panini maker, carrots and more guacamole!

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I better start meal planning for next week.  I am hoping to have Aidan search recipes with me.  Maybe, if I am lucky and he can sit still for 2 minutes, we will find something!

Good Luck to ME!

New & Old Faves + a plea from me

Things are back to normal around here finally. I am so glad. I thrive on a routine and schedule and so do my kids. I have found it really remarkable that all last week while the boys were away, I didn’t need a nap or feel the slightest bit tired at any point. Yesterday by 2 pm, I crashed and burned. It may have had something to do with the fact that I got a solid 8-9 hours of sleep every night last week and then Sunday night I was up every hour with a small child who wouldn’t stay in his bed. Could it also have had something to do with the fact that BOTH children were up at 5 am with me? Even though I could really use a nap right now, I am so delighted to hear them playing with army guys in Luke’s room right now. I know for a fact that the break was so good for my mental and physical health. I have found myself calm and assertive instead of screaming with a headache and frazzled nerves. THANK YOU MIMI AND PAPA for taking them for an entire week so I could re-charge!

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Sunday night I made a new recipe from my Taste of Home Comfort Food Diet Cookbook

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New Favorite Recipe:

Taste of Home Baked Tilapia

This was incredible. THIS COOKBOOK is simply the best.

Old favorite breakfasts:

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These were my breakfasts the last two days

Above: 1/2 sandwich thin with 1 tbsp. JIF natural peanut butter (yesterday morning)

Below: 1 tbsp. Justin’s Maple Almond Butter on a banana (this morning)

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Microwave the banana and nut butter for 30 seconds for a warm delicious breakfast or snack.

Old favorite post work out snack:

Dannon 0% Greek Yogurt in Blueberry w/ 2 tbsp. homemade granola

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I had this yesterday after the gym along with an apple

New Favorite Meal:

This was dinner last night and most likely I will have it again tonight. I am not a fan of a heavy dinner so I REALLY like having this low calorie/nutrient rich smoothie.

Healthy Smoothie:

  • 2 cups spinach
  • 1 small banana
  • 1 cup frozen strawberries
  • ~ 1/2 cup frozen pineapple
  • 1 scoop EAS Lean 15 Protein Powder in Vanilla
  • 1 tbsp. chia seeds

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Old favorite workout:

Jillian Michael’s 30 Day Shred.

Over our vacation last week I decided to take an extended break from my workouts. Meaning I didn’t workout for 7 days. The break was nice. Very nice, but I was more than ready to get back in the gym Monday morning. Much to my surprise…I was not able to do what I had been able to do the week before! Imagine that. My heart rate was crazy high so I had to keep it slow and steady. I broke a sweat after just 10 min of jogging at 5.0 mph. I guess it was a good reminder of my humble beginnings. Yesterday and today I have been easing back into my old workout routine by breaking it up a little. Yesterday I jog/walked on the treadmill in the morning for 30 min and then in the afternoon I did level 2 of Shred. Today all the treadmills were taken so I had to use the elliptical machine. Thumbs down I just did 30 minutes on that and then when I got home I popped in Shred again. Aidan loves to workout with me. I have a secret prayer that we will be running buddies someday!

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and listen…if my 5 yr. old can do it….SO.CAN.YOU!

Today’s lunch was YUM! Maybe a new favorite.

I put a Morningstar Asian veggie patty on a FlatOut flat bread and grilled it in my Panini Maker, along side some strawberries and baby carrots.

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……and THEN these came!!!!

NEW FAVORITE!

We found these at the Allen Outlet last week but they didn’t have my size. So we ordered them and they came today!

Nike Women’s Flex Trainer

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super light and comfortable.

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they came with hot pink laces that I will be putting in ASAP.

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Nothing better than a new pair of running shoes!!! I do love my K-Swiss Tubes, but it was high time for a new pair! The tubes will retire to my running shoe graveyard.

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I wanted to share a really great post that I read on another healthy living blog that I love.

“You Can’t Out Exercise A Bad Diet”

She hit the nail on the head with this post. I couldn’t agree more with everything she said.

Now it’s time for me to get on my soapbox. I try not to give advice on here, only what I have experienced personally. Everyone is different and different things work for different people.

I see time and time again people jump head first into a fad diet (think low or no carb), excluding entire food groups. Start an intense workout regime like P90X or Insanity when they haven’t so much as walked a full mile in ten years. They expect their lives and bodies to change over night or they believe they have found a miracle! I know there are a lot of exceptions but I think 9 times out of 10 they have set themselves up for failure, defeat, gaining more weight, feeling hopeless or unworthy.

I have done the same thing. I have done it all. Adkins, South Beach, Hydroxycut, Xenedrine, Weight Watchers, starvation….. I have learned one thing. I must do everyday what I know I can do for the rest of my life. Can I live with no bread? Can I do 2-3 hours of a workout 5-6 days a week? I could, but would I want to? It isn’t sustainable. I have seen time and time again (myself included) people start out sprinting on Monday, but then peter out by Friday because they are burned out already. And rightly so!

Then there is the diet situation. You can’t out train a bad diet. You can workout all you want but if you don’t change your diet, cut waaay back on drinking (or better yet, quit all together), quit smoking, quit staying up all night….working out isn’t going to do a thing for you. DIET & Exercise. When I lost the first 30 lbs., I wasn’t working out at all. It wasn’t until I hit a plateau that I started working out. It’s been said, 80% diet 10% exercise and 10% genetics. This is the absolute truth.

So I am going to get off my tangent now and just pray that if you are serious about getting in shape and getting healthy, you will take a look at the entire picture. Look at what needs to change, what you are willing to change for a lifetime and start there. Start by just going for a walk, then a jog….start by weaning yourself off soft drinks or for crying out loud quit stopping at fast food joints, better yet, quit eating out all together. Most would be floored at the calorie bombs these places serve up. Horrific. Educate yourself on what you are putting in your body & get real & honest with yourself.

Needing a Challenge

I woke up this morning…..famished!  I seriously could have eaten breakfast at 5am.  I had my coffee and that held me over for a few hours.

First, around 7am, I ate an orange along with my L-Carnitine/Raspberry Ketones.

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Then it looked like I was way ahead of schedule and would be able to make it to the gym super early. So at about 7:30 I ate a small breakfast of 1/2 a bagel thin with 1 tbsp. peanut butter, 1/2 a banana and cinnamon sprinkled on top.

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I gave it about an hour to digest as I felt my motivation and energy level waning…..I went to bed way late last night because I was up reading Catching Fire.  I know better than this. All I wanted to do was go back to bed and or eat something else.  I was soooo hungry!  I decided I would have something else to eat and give it another hour before I dragged my lazy bum to the gym.

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8:30 – Dannon Traditional Greek yogurt in strawberry, 14 almonds, 1/4 cup Cinnamon Honey Bunches of Oats and 2 tbsp. homemade granola.  Finally….not hungry anymore.

After about an hour I finally made it to the gym.

Workout

Most of the time after two days of rest, it’s easy for me to go to workout.  I am ready for it.   I start to feel gross and lazy after two days.  But there are sometimes when it’s not easy at all.  If I didn’t know better, it would be the beginning of falling off the Healthy Living Wagon.  Something came to me this morning as I was begrudgingly putting on my running shoes.

“Amanda, not working out is not an option for you.”

I don’t know where it came from, maybe it was divine, but it was one of those moments that just really lit the fire under me.  It’s really not an option for me.  I have to workout.  I have to workout for my mental health, for my physical health, for my kids, for my husband, for me.  I do LOVE working out, but I know that it would be so easy for me to just stop.  It’s not an option.  I can’t go back to living the way I was living over two years ago.

When I got there and got started I had a great workout.  Not surprisingly.  Isn’t that how it always happens?  As I was yet again running on the treadmill, I realized that I am getting very bored with my workouts lately.  Even though they have been really great, I don’t look forward to my gym workouts the way I used to. What I really wanted to do this morning was Bob’s workout because it has been such a challenge, or just SOMETHING new.  I even thought about taking Aidan to the park and doing something fun there.  But, part of working out for me is to be able to give myself a mental break & give my Mommy Brain a break.  A break from constant questions, constant re-directing, constant noise.  I started thinking I need a change and new challenge.  So I am going to step out of my comfort zone and start taking advantage of all the group exercise classes at my gym. Something that is funny to me is that I have a slight disdain for the group classes. When there are too many going on at once, I can not find a parking spot and sometimes we have to wait for a spot in the KidZone.  Well, if you can’t beat them, join them!   I have really been wanting to try a Spin Class.  They come out of that class drenched in sweat.  When Luke is out of school I am going to start going back to Bodypump.  I had to stop going because the classes are at 5 and 6 pm.  Which for me is too late.  I may get brave and try the Bootcamp.  I don't know smile  All I know is I have to do something to avoid complete burnout.

I felt pretty good after my workout but like I had completely phoned it in because I was bored.  I ran for the entire 30 min again, and then did two sets of my usual shoulder workout and 2 sets of 15 bicep curls, both with 8lb weights. Then I did 20 full push-ups.  I skipped all the other stuff I usually do because, you guessed it….bored.

My three breakfasts this morning did a great job of holding me over until almost 3pm!  I finally got hungry again and had an apple, & two pieces of the protein bread I made yesterday.

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Don’t you know peanut butter tastes better straight out of the jar?

I’m not sure what’s for dinner.  I think Morningstar Corndogs and Annie’s Mac-N-Cheese for Aidan.  Luke had a party after school complete with pizza and cookies, so fruit for him Winking smile

It was another bowl of roasted veggies & 1 cup of Archer Farms Coconut Cashew Basmati rice for me.

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I need to find some more “New Recipes” for this week.  Hopefully I can actually find some instead of looking for hours only to have found nothing and be starving for cake!

Are you in a workout rut/weight loss rut too?  This may help.

Motivation Rut Busters – Fitness Magazine.