I am struggling today ya’ll. I was good until I saw Aidan’s teacher. I hugged her and then we both started crying as the feelings of helplessness arose once again. I am trying with all my strength to NOT BE AFRAID. Afraid for my own children who are innocently going about their day while I am spending every moment seeking comfort in Christmas music and constant prayer. I didn’t realize today would be so hard. I go through moments of peace and moments of sadness. Needless to say I can’t wait to go get my babies today!!!!
It took a while to get an appetite worked up but I made a yummy lunch today! I had an apple and a cheese stick with a piece of turkey wrapped around it….no picture, sorry….it was as I was trying to decide what I wanted…an apple is always a good way to start a meal.
Carrots, hummus and sweet potato chips. I had already eaten some before this picture but trust me there were more chips and carrots eaten!!!
Here’s your random silly photo for the day.
Mom: Take a picture with me
I need to get some of my to-do list done but I am having a hard time getting motivated and moving forward. Just thinking about the parents. Parents who won’t be able to give their babies their Christmas gifts that I am sure are already purchased and in a secret place. It paralyzes me. I must though. I must not live with a troubled heart. Sometimes the very thing you don’t want to do is the thing that will make you feel better. I must overcome evil with good. Romans 12:21. So I will go wrap my precious children’s gifts and maybe bake them some cookies. I will pray for those parents who can’t and thank God for mine over and over and over.